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I feel like I've let you down Kylie. Please understand that none of this was planned.
Cali is pushed off due to the fact that I have too much on my plate.
I'm so upset, confused, excited, stressed, sad....distraught.
I don't need/want sympothy.
Family has been asking me to see a counselor. To get checked out for anxiety attacks. To think about anti depressants.
I don't want anti depressants. I don't need them. Just because I'm having feelings and emotions doesn't mean I need a drug to suppress them.
I'm going to go see a naturopathic physician. Change my diet, my daily routine. See what I can do in my lifestyle to get out of this funk.
I want to find out a strong daily meditation for myself as well.
Oh and who gets excited for their daughter to come home and sticks them in a trailor.
So my journies are now taking me to Oregon.
Talking to Shawn's mom, Kelley, has really helped. She said something along the lines of don't worry about college until you are ready. Go live. Go explore before you settle down and don't have the opportunity again. She said that she went to college right out of highschool because that's what her parents wanted to see and she never got the chance to explore like she wanted. She's more of a motherly support to me right now then my own mother.
I'm hoping to move to Europe before I'm 24. Just for a year or so. Nothing too crazy. Just living.
Cali is pushed off due to the fact that I have too much on my plate.
I'm so upset, confused, excited, stressed, sad....distraught.
I don't need/want sympothy.
Family has been asking me to see a counselor. To get checked out for anxiety attacks. To think about anti depressants.
I don't want anti depressants. I don't need them. Just because I'm having feelings and emotions doesn't mean I need a drug to suppress them.
I'm going to go see a naturopathic physician. Change my diet, my daily routine. See what I can do in my lifestyle to get out of this funk.
I want to find out a strong daily meditation for myself as well.
Oh and who gets excited for their daughter to come home and sticks them in a trailor.
So my journies are now taking me to Oregon.
Talking to Shawn's mom, Kelley, has really helped. She said something along the lines of don't worry about college until you are ready. Go live. Go explore before you settle down and don't have the opportunity again. She said that she went to college right out of highschool because that's what her parents wanted to see and she never got the chance to explore like she wanted. She's more of a motherly support to me right now then my own mother.
I'm hoping to move to Europe before I'm 24. Just for a year or so. Nothing too crazy. Just living.