i can't save me from myself.

[dont_eat_fish]

i just wrote nick the most long-winded email of all time.
i think i had a lot of realizations while putting thoughts into sentences, too.

i'm tired of just living.
i want to really experience life.
but there are a lot of things holding me back.
myself, for the most part.

i've travelled to the other side of the world, but i'm doing the exact same things i'd be doing back home.
i need to break free of routine.
i need to be spontaneous.
i need to be more personable.
i need to stop analyzing and just enjoy.

i don't want to be careless or irresponsible.
i just want/need to lighten up.

gold coast, please be my savior.