First Time.
I am new to this community and wanted to take the opportunity to make my first post.
My name is Megan and I am 20 years old. To the outside world, my life may appear near perfect at first glance, yet it is quite a different story. I have spent the majority of my life living in a cloud of depression with little means for escape. My father doesn't believe depression can be treated. He also believes that psychology and therapy are a waste of time. Since I was a young girl, I have been suffering from body image issues and low self esteem. I have been in recovery from anorexia for nearly a year now after suffering from distorted eating habits for years.
As a means to escape the pain of depression and anorexia, I began cutting. It wasn't a conscious effort, and I really can't describe how it came to be. In high school I would cut periodically, yet it didn't feel as though I was addicted or forming any sort of habit. Since I have been in recovery for anorexia, I have begun cutting more often. It feels as though I cannot control my life through my eating anymore and the pain and anxiety becomes unbearable. Cutting allows me to feel at ease from my panic attacks.
Although on the surface I believe cutting helps me to escape from anorexia, I know this isn't the case. I am really looking forward to staying away from the razor and working hard to not harm my body any more than it has been in years past.
I'm glad I found a community that is supportive. I want to find new ways to cope with my fears that don't involve hurting myself. I do want to beat this and come out stronger than I've ever been before.
My name is Megan and I am 20 years old. To the outside world, my life may appear near perfect at first glance, yet it is quite a different story. I have spent the majority of my life living in a cloud of depression with little means for escape. My father doesn't believe depression can be treated. He also believes that psychology and therapy are a waste of time. Since I was a young girl, I have been suffering from body image issues and low self esteem. I have been in recovery from anorexia for nearly a year now after suffering from distorted eating habits for years.
As a means to escape the pain of depression and anorexia, I began cutting. It wasn't a conscious effort, and I really can't describe how it came to be. In high school I would cut periodically, yet it didn't feel as though I was addicted or forming any sort of habit. Since I have been in recovery for anorexia, I have begun cutting more often. It feels as though I cannot control my life through my eating anymore and the pain and anxiety becomes unbearable. Cutting allows me to feel at ease from my panic attacks.
Although on the surface I believe cutting helps me to escape from anorexia, I know this isn't the case. I am really looking forward to staying away from the razor and working hard to not harm my body any more than it has been in years past.
I'm glad I found a community that is supportive. I want to find new ways to cope with my fears that don't involve hurting myself. I do want to beat this and come out stronger than I've ever been before.