No One Is Going To Write My Song
I should probably make a real entry sometime soon. I have a lot of thoughts floating around. I walk around all day creating little poems and a list of things that I could update about, then I sit down to write and I lose all motivation to do so. I should try to fix that sometime. Bullet points, yes? Yes.
- Haven't talked to Kris since we broke up.
- Don't want to talk to Kris because I still hurt. And I'm fucking pissed.
- I should be more motivated to try harder in school. I should care more.
- I don't understand rebounds. I never really had one until recently? I don't even know if it's a rebound. I think rebounds weird me out.
- I appreciate that she doesn't have expectations and hasn't pushed me to make any decisions at this point.
- I am really queer.
- I want to buy an acoustic guiter. Like, right now please.
- I think it's ironic how I sleep with women and tend to be in a perpetual state of confusion about it.
- I have tried to compartmentalize my feelings about our current situation and it only confuses me more. I appreciate that you understand where I'm coming from and take the time to listen.
- I am finally starting to put things together in my mind about the break up so that I can move forward. I can think about things without crying, even if I still get upset, and sad.
- Read random LiveJournal entries from 2005-2007. It was awkward and I've noticed some ongoing issues that I still have with me today. (i.e. my state of relationships, my struggle with my queer identity, my desire to be with another trans guys, Dee's ongoing lack of support before and during my hormonal transition, etc.)
- I want to buy a pair of Chucks.
- I want to buy a Chrome bag because they have a cool buckle. Solely because of the buckle.
- Made homemade cheesecake and colored on the sidewalk with chalk; it was the most fun I have had in a long time.
- I want to travel.
- I want to work on losing more weight. I have also realized that every time I try doing so, I get depressed because I realize how out of shape I'm in.
- I tend to deal with really important, personal things by avoiding and ignoring them so I don't hurt.
- I want to fall in love. With life.
- I should sleep more.
- I need a new piercing.
- I miss old friends.
- Haven't talked to Kris since we broke up.
- Don't want to talk to Kris because I still hurt. And I'm fucking pissed.
- I should be more motivated to try harder in school. I should care more.
- I don't understand rebounds. I never really had one until recently? I don't even know if it's a rebound. I think rebounds weird me out.
- I appreciate that she doesn't have expectations and hasn't pushed me to make any decisions at this point.
- I am really queer.
- I want to buy an acoustic guiter. Like, right now please.
- I think it's ironic how I sleep with women and tend to be in a perpetual state of confusion about it.
- I have tried to compartmentalize my feelings about our current situation and it only confuses me more. I appreciate that you understand where I'm coming from and take the time to listen.
- I am finally starting to put things together in my mind about the break up so that I can move forward. I can think about things without crying, even if I still get upset, and sad.
- Read random LiveJournal entries from 2005-2007. It was awkward and I've noticed some ongoing issues that I still have with me today. (i.e. my state of relationships, my struggle with my queer identity, my desire to be with another trans guys, Dee's ongoing lack of support before and during my hormonal transition, etc.)
- I want to buy a pair of Chucks.
- I want to buy a Chrome bag because they have a cool buckle. Solely because of the buckle.
- Made homemade cheesecake and colored on the sidewalk with chalk; it was the most fun I have had in a long time.
- I want to travel.
- I want to work on losing more weight. I have also realized that every time I try doing so, I get depressed because I realize how out of shape I'm in.
- I tend to deal with really important, personal things by avoiding and ignoring them so I don't hurt.
- I want to fall in love. With life.
- I should sleep more.
- I need a new piercing.
- I miss old friends.