venting (read it i don't care)
I wish people could see life through my eyes. I wish that people could see the important things in life and i wish that people could see how hard it is to be someone to somebody now a days. I am not going to lie I have issues that people don't even know about. The people that are closest to me in my life right now have no clue of the thoughts that go through my head every single day. So great some i wish i could forget. This is how i see life. Your born, you get your education you start a career and you finish off on some white sanded beach on distant island with nothing to do but bake in the sun. Somewhere in that time span we call a life you find someone that cares for you as much as you care about them...in my case probably more. You make a family and you have that partner there till he or she dies. Lord i know i am no where near a good human being. I know my past is full of bullshit. But I don't think i deserve half the shit i go through on a daily basis. With work and school and my personal life. Is it so wrong to ask for somone to not be selfish for one day and to just be there for me. Come to me and want to talk. Come to me and want to lay down. Come to me and offer some answers. Come to me and do something for me with out being asked. Come to me and be a great person/friend/girlfriend/dad/mom/sister/brother/anything you want to call yourselves. For one day i wish that things would go my way. That people would put everything that breaks me and someone up, push all that to the side and love me. For the first time today i felt somewhat loved for the two hurs i was with you. But again i wish for just one day....i wish people would come and want to be with me. I forgot how it feels to be wanted, to be needed, to be cared about, to be loved. Maybe i am just over reacting but everybody seems like they could say what they want and i will be fine with it opr that i will do something and then now...the people that are reading this are probably getting pissed because I am saying something wrong and they think it is all the same shit over and over. Its not this is a whole new case and i plan on drinking every ounce of it. I am done. Don't feel sorry for me if one day i just wake up and decide to get the fuck out of this shit hole we call life. Fuck it I am out....and you know that the sad part is....no one even knows what I am talking about....yeah welcome home.