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You ever have the sence that like you can only jump so far. Thats kinda how i feel reight now. Kinda like no matter what i do i can only succeed so much. That i can only make people happy so much. That i can only do so many right things. I honestly think that it is time for me to just go ahead and just worry about me. Yes i am a worrier. I worry about everything and trust me it is in no way a life style anyone would want to live. I worry because i care i think. Because i care too much about the ones i love and even the ones i don't. At this time I do not hate anyone and i do not plan on hating anyone any more. I don't know why every body has to think that like i hate someone or like i don't want to be around people. Would anyone like to know what i want for christmas. I would like for things to be the way they were. Id like to go over to steves house or joes house and play a board game or watch a movie or just sit in a circle and talk to everyone. Id love for that to happen. And while that was happening id like to eat some good grub, maybe have a drink or two, have my girlfriend on the side of me so i can hold her hand or something. But will that ever happen? Who knows. I mean i think its quiet obvious that i hate everyone and i am a boring guy. (sarcasm) I love the shit out of carrie. Steve is still one of the coolest people i know. Matt is dope as hell because he is so real. I miss kurt and eric. Rachel and mundo are pretty cool because they balance themselves out so well. I miss adam. derek and crystal are cool also. Joe and ryan and "fifi" are pretty cool kats themselves because they know how to have a good time. I don't mind be around a bunch of people. I don't even mind being around a bunch of guys when my girlfriend is the only one with a vagina in the room. Its just if the tables were completly flipped around and everything was the opposite then nothing would be the same because everyone would be acting completly different and no one would even care. Its sad when I am the one trying to get people together. Maybe I am not the only one but at lease i am the only one that puts it out on the table for everyone. No matter who i am tired of. But that shows alot of peoples true colors thats for sure. So there you go to everyone who is going to read this. There is the open invitation. Anyone can call me, at any time, and i will go anywhere and if i am at work or extremly busy at the moment then i will defoinitly get back to you asap. So i am done with what i had to say. Basically i dont hate anyone, everyone is cool in my book and if your not tired of me....hit me up some time and lets get the good times a rollin because i am sick and tired of this boring ass life style. And people say i am boring. Oh and after christmas is over everyone expect phone calls because we are getting a party started somewhere.
Anyways my days have not been too bad. My mind is still a little side tracked at times but whos isnt now a days. Still feel like there are little whispers going around the air/web i guess lol. Still feel confident though. Still feel pretty goood about my life and where it is going. I would still like to correct some things but i doubt that will happen during winter. I hate the winter its boring/cold/boring/cold and no one rerally wants to do anything. Well i am going to go to bed because well im bored and no one is up.
Goodnight and take from this what you will who cares anymore
Anyways my days have not been too bad. My mind is still a little side tracked at times but whos isnt now a days. Still feel like there are little whispers going around the air/web i guess lol. Still feel confident though. Still feel pretty goood about my life and where it is going. I would still like to correct some things but i doubt that will happen during winter. I hate the winter its boring/cold/boring/cold and no one rerally wants to do anything. Well i am going to go to bed because well im bored and no one is up.
Goodnight and take from this what you will who cares anymore