Jun 23, 2005 20:07
1. Reply with your name and I will write something I like about you.
2. I will then tell what song reminds me of you.
3. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, I'll tell you what it would be.
4. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
5. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
6. I will tell you what color you remind me of.
7. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. Put this in your journal
It is not the strongest of the species that survive, nor the most intelligent , but the one that most responsive to change-Charles Darwin…how true that is
And I don’t necessarily think that I’ve become a doormat.maybe just the front porch step. In some instances I have stretched so far personally and emotionally, I contradicted the “take no nonsense attitude” I portrayed.But I know what is is, which shows my dumbass I am capable of caring. No matter what though never cradle sadness when you can choose to be happy. Some people nominate themselves as a victim to get sympathy and attention, but that’s not worth the time you’re wasting being a victim. I don’t know anything as of now, just like I said before everything is subject to change. I know one thing I am not weak and will never again portray myself as a victim of someone being mean to me and not loving me back. Sure I’m sad, but Im not just a cold hearted bitch, deep down I want to be loved like everyone else, but not at my expense and loss of my self control. Everyone has this desire to be with someone and wants to know how im so composed and so strong. Im not strong all the time at all, but I just wont settle on anyone and not because I’m that’s important or that pretty, but I don’t need unnecessary drama. And if I love myself, I wont deal with those that don’t love me and make me want to hate myself. I want to change do something new..be something new, so don’t be surprised if im so far gone in a couple of months you don’t recognize me It’s a feeling…I don’t know why but lately Ive not been satisfied with myself. But its like a gravitational pull, which may explain why I don’t want to be in south jersey anymore, or jersey for that fact. I don’t know why, just a feeling I get. At this point, I wouldn’t call my mood in general, depressed, just disappointed I guess.
Oh please please please
My worth is not the presence of a man
And my life story is not of a broken heart
Because time before I loved the victim in me way
More than the hero in me
And even if I yearn for that someone that makes me feel complete
I wont settle for just anyone just to make me feel special or say things just to seem sweet
And they say love don’t cost a thing
But I beg to differ because my love is not pretentious or cheap
XOXOXOXO~Blows a kiss