Didn't you know I could help or hurt you?
fuck it I'm really relaxed right now. I'm actually kind of happy. And its not because of the shopping i did yesterday, i just feel good about myself and dont need anything artificial right now to define me. I rarely "feel" like this. I'm not craving phone calls or text messages or anything like that or anyone for that matter. Just in my own zone @ the moment. Of course that will change..lol but im coolin as of now. I need to take some new pictures soon because i'm getting tired of the ones i have.
Plus..when you out of nowhere mentally adapt to something so well you're over it completely is a really good feeling. Because I seriously didn't do anything I just snapped out of it. There has to be more..I'm only 19. yay!
I start work soon. Which I need to do because I'm broke as hell and I think I must have mistaken the world credit with gift, because I'm using my credit cards like gift cards without a second thought. My only problem with work is even though I've worked there before, I feel like I'm going backwards in time by doing so. Of course it will be different, but I'm supposed to be shedding things of my past. However, beggars can't be choosy and I am trying to get a second job. Monday I go back, @ 9. All of you know for the past few months my ass has not been getting up before like 12..we shall see how this goes. But I gotta do it.
I quit smoking.Not good for my health and I'm feeling the effects, so no more for that. Its not even the same feeling as when I first started up, like i smoke now and take 3 drags and I'm done bc it tastes disgusting. I still kind of want to which is purely mental, bc my body is saying no, but i wont do that. I still dont feel very good.
Hey
Didn't you know I can help or hurt you
So there's no reason to lie
I bet you let those other niggas jerk you
Convince you that they are fly
I never said I was an angel
Said but I ain't like those other guys
Listen
You're convinced that our experience rearranged you
Well maybe you should reexamine
How you tried
Chorus
3x
Am I High
I think I've loved you since our high school
You only wanted friends of mine
So when they replied
Her she's cool
Only then you gave our friendship time
You won't say it but you think I'm changin'
Is it because the whole world calls me drugs
Didn't I say I can help or hurt you
You should be paranoid without me
and with me feel a buzz
Is that cocky or what
Repeat Chorus
Rap verse:
It's the kinda high that got me leanin'
120 speedin' in the rain
Meaning of a hydroplane
Play both sides of the field
See I know pain
Keep 'em high like Kurt Cobain
Listen
I'm known for speaking my mind
Known for fleeing from the scene of a crime
Eyes redder than the beam of my nine
Eyes redder than the scene of that crime
All for the love of the lime
I'm so high
Insinuating you're not that way
I see how you look and use your eyes
But when I ask you can I jump in
Then you start again with the lines
But if I dare you you'd blow a kiss to another
Though my friends have no idea who you could be
Don't worry I would never tell another
But I ate your pussy as you layed there beside her yes she was asleep
Repeat Chorus
Why am I sitting here
Peering the sky
Is there something inside of me or am I high
From when we talk on the phone 'til when we fuck
This sounds like deep lust to me
But I get high on your love