With one arrow through my heart and one arrow through my back...
I have a feeling I'm going to make my journal friends only soon. Not
because I'm trying to be ann exclusive and shit, but just because I
think I want to expand more on some things and I just feel like doing
it. I dont know tho, we'll see. I dont know how to make it friends only
though, so if someone could tell how I'd greatly appreciate.
I don't feel like myself for some reason. If you have no idea what I'm talking about I dont know how to explain it, but you know when you just dont feel like you and you just feel as your floating through the days, getting nothing done, and not being happy. Anyways, yeah thats how I've been recently. I feel like doing something drastic or reinventing myself. And I lost my debit card so I'm broke as hell, and cant get money out. I need my wisdom teeth out and it feels like someone is piercing my left bottom tooth with a large blade with spikes on it. Just been a series of bad events and I am really frustrated.
A person's best quality often doubles for their worst quality. Whatever it is you excell at or use as the basis as defining yourself can also be a bad thing. Like "too much of a good thing" which often leads to it being not so good.Yes there is a such thing as being too nice, if someone is going to take advantage of you and it happens repeatedly if you're so obsessed with being seen as nice any kind of excess in anything is bad in my opinion. Someone can be smart as hell and because of being told that all the time decides to be a know it all and think they can speak on everything. Thats where their quality turns ugly. And I think everyone has something like this about them, there is a part of them that is unbalanced and a part of their personality that they focus on.
If you had the chance to would you live in someone's mind for a day?
Ok..ok..nosy ass people most of you probably said yes. Because you may want to know if that person really loves you, and if this person really hates you, or if your brother or sister really is your mother's favorite child, or what a guy or girl would think like, right? People are curious and there is nothing wrong with that..curiosity influences communication, I think. But think of all the thoughts in your own head that you never express and how they confuse you, then think of trying to be in someone else's head. By "living in someone's mind", I dont mean switching bodies or anything, but just being able to take a day and just know all the thoughts and listen to them, of a person that you may know.
I think it would be difficult just based on the fact that you understand how you think and I understand how I think, and somehow we make most things we do and say make sense. But you have no idea why someone does what they do,. Just because a person follows norms and doesn't do something crazy or out of control doesn't mean the way they think is "normal", it just means they follow the rules of society and humanity. A person can do things for entirely different reasons then they do. For example, just because someone sleeps at night doesn't mean they don't think that sleep is a crazy function that causes mental illness and only sleeps because they want to conform. See? I'm saying that we don't know how others think, we "see" how others think and "hear" how others think, we don't know shit.
Sometimes we don't even comprehend ourselves, now imagine living in someone's mind for a day, experiencing what they experience and thinking how they think. I think it would be insane and also you may learn more about that person than you care to know.
Basically if this happened we wouldn't see people the same, we'd be interested by how they think because it would be different that us or maybe similiar, but in general I think it would be a scary situation.
I'm at the point where you think that other people are confused with you and relate to and you and don't know direction and question life and themselves. But then all at once everyone decides to move on to bigger and better things and you're left with the puzzle you all started to put all the pieces together by yourself.
That is how I would describe life right now....
With one arrow through my heart and one knife through my back...
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i wrote this in winter, too long...but its the truth
As things change scenery all around..
And those colorful autumn leaves now disipate into the fall snow
Yet this all is supposed to make me grow
and if change must happen it must
But if change is all around then that means im changing as well
Since change is constant it must trample over me
Is it my fault that you must be so in motion
So because time and change YOU must be constant
You must ruffle my emotions
Seasons Change and my reasons change
Standing in the middle of chaos when all I wanted was to avoid loss
Change doesn't give me a time to speak
Becayse it smacks into my thoughts in other directions
So when I come back to it all it's still in my life but rearranged
And the change of scenery confuses me
And it uses me for its selfish plans
So demanding, so unrelenting
People's faces distort as change makes them where different masks
Opinions validate to unvalidate
Dates swarm by, and months creep up on me
I thought I bought time made a deal with it by acknowledging it, but it sill hits me hard as the rest
And I don't resist it, it just doesn't appeal to me when it changes things for me
You're too fast...I can't keep up...
I don't feel like myself for some reason. If you have no idea what I'm talking about I dont know how to explain it, but you know when you just dont feel like you and you just feel as your floating through the days, getting nothing done, and not being happy. Anyways, yeah thats how I've been recently. I feel like doing something drastic or reinventing myself. And I lost my debit card so I'm broke as hell, and cant get money out. I need my wisdom teeth out and it feels like someone is piercing my left bottom tooth with a large blade with spikes on it. Just been a series of bad events and I am really frustrated.
A person's best quality often doubles for their worst quality. Whatever it is you excell at or use as the basis as defining yourself can also be a bad thing. Like "too much of a good thing" which often leads to it being not so good.Yes there is a such thing as being too nice, if someone is going to take advantage of you and it happens repeatedly if you're so obsessed with being seen as nice any kind of excess in anything is bad in my opinion. Someone can be smart as hell and because of being told that all the time decides to be a know it all and think they can speak on everything. Thats where their quality turns ugly. And I think everyone has something like this about them, there is a part of them that is unbalanced and a part of their personality that they focus on.
If you had the chance to would you live in someone's mind for a day?
Ok..ok..nosy ass people most of you probably said yes. Because you may want to know if that person really loves you, and if this person really hates you, or if your brother or sister really is your mother's favorite child, or what a guy or girl would think like, right? People are curious and there is nothing wrong with that..curiosity influences communication, I think. But think of all the thoughts in your own head that you never express and how they confuse you, then think of trying to be in someone else's head. By "living in someone's mind", I dont mean switching bodies or anything, but just being able to take a day and just know all the thoughts and listen to them, of a person that you may know.
I think it would be difficult just based on the fact that you understand how you think and I understand how I think, and somehow we make most things we do and say make sense. But you have no idea why someone does what they do,. Just because a person follows norms and doesn't do something crazy or out of control doesn't mean the way they think is "normal", it just means they follow the rules of society and humanity. A person can do things for entirely different reasons then they do. For example, just because someone sleeps at night doesn't mean they don't think that sleep is a crazy function that causes mental illness and only sleeps because they want to conform. See? I'm saying that we don't know how others think, we "see" how others think and "hear" how others think, we don't know shit.
Sometimes we don't even comprehend ourselves, now imagine living in someone's mind for a day, experiencing what they experience and thinking how they think. I think it would be insane and also you may learn more about that person than you care to know.
Basically if this happened we wouldn't see people the same, we'd be interested by how they think because it would be different that us or maybe similiar, but in general I think it would be a scary situation.
I'm at the point where you think that other people are confused with you and relate to and you and don't know direction and question life and themselves. But then all at once everyone decides to move on to bigger and better things and you're left with the puzzle you all started to put all the pieces together by yourself.
That is how I would describe life right now....
With one arrow through my heart and one knife through my back...
+
i wrote this in winter, too long...but its the truth
As things change scenery all around..
And those colorful autumn leaves now disipate into the fall snow
Yet this all is supposed to make me grow
and if change must happen it must
But if change is all around then that means im changing as well
Since change is constant it must trample over me
Is it my fault that you must be so in motion
So because time and change YOU must be constant
You must ruffle my emotions
Seasons Change and my reasons change
Standing in the middle of chaos when all I wanted was to avoid loss
Change doesn't give me a time to speak
Becayse it smacks into my thoughts in other directions
So when I come back to it all it's still in my life but rearranged
And the change of scenery confuses me
And it uses me for its selfish plans
So demanding, so unrelenting
People's faces distort as change makes them where different masks
Opinions validate to unvalidate
Dates swarm by, and months creep up on me
I thought I bought time made a deal with it by acknowledging it, but it sill hits me hard as the rest
And I don't resist it, it just doesn't appeal to me when it changes things for me
You're too fast...I can't keep up...