Long time, no real update. Here's what has been going on with me the past few months:
I was fired from my job at the zoo 2 days before Thanksgiving. This sucked, but was the best thing to happen to me in a long time.
I was unhappy being there, and my 2 bosses were unhappy having me there. I wrote an email to both of them and cc'd the manager of the foundation that explained why I did not respect or trust either of them. This didn't go well with my bosses, but the manager understood and wanted to help me find a different job. She didn't want to fire me, but I think my email pissed off my bosses and they wanted to find a way to make me leave.
Sure enough, they found one, and i was let go less than a week after the incident. I could say so many things about who and what and why, but everyone involved knows that it came down to the fact that I was unhappy and should have left a long time ago. I was not OK with being a data entry clerk and providing over-the-phone customer service to lame asses.
Being fired has afforded me two luxuries:
1. I qualified for unemployment since the state felt that the reasons for my dismissal were not valid.
2. I've spent a lot of time creating art (mostly painting and duct tape related), looking for better jobs, volunteering, and getting my life back under control.
I hold no animosity toward my former employer, and I even reached out to my direct supervisor to see if she wanted to bury the hatchet and try to have a friendship. Apparently she doesn't and would rather let it all boil and fester inside since she never replied to my email. That sucks because I really like her and she is a burner. Oh well, we all make our own choices.
Soon I will have my CPR and first aid training business up and running so that I can go off of unemployment. I look forward to that fast approaching day so that I can finally be leading the life I want to lead.
I recently started Weight Watchers with my roommate. This is one of the best things I have ever done for myself. I have lost 7.8 lbs since I have started the program!
I enjoy WW because it's not a diet. It's a body check on a food level instead of the ice. You're taught how to read a food label, how to exercise, and how to look at food as substance of sustenance instead of comfort.
I can eat whatever I want, I just can't go over my points for the day. It all comes down to math: If you weigh this much, then you should eat no more than this amount of calories in a day in order to safely loose weight. That's it. That's the big secret.
You also attend meetings and get support from your peers. People at the meetings discuss a variety of things and tell their success stories. I don't think some people really get it, but maybe they will. Here's an example of what I mean:
A person who doesn't get it will say this at a meeting: "I just found this great non-fat coffee creamer! I try not to eat all of my Flex Points for the week."
A person who does get it will say this at a meeting while putting regular half and half in their coffee: "I no longer have to take my diabetes or blood pressure medicine. I feel the best I have in 20 years. I'm going to be able to see my grandkids go through college."
See the difference? Weight Watchers is not about buying a pre-packaged meal, taking medicine, or finding substitutes for real food. It's about learning how to control your eating and exercise habits so that you can feel great about yourself and your life.
I can't wait until i weigh less than the weight printed on my driver's license. I think I'll cry.