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i just came to the conclusion that the last three years of my life have been a complete waiste... i wish i could go back to the summer of 8th grade headin to 9th and start over never leaving my friends in the first place and never needing to come back, i would have always been there, and if i was there how things might be diffrent now if i was there to be the good friend and to motavate matt like i did would he still be in highschool same thing with willy. maybe im takin to much credit but i feel guilty as shit for where those two are at right now, dont get me wrong they are workin for what they want and working hard but they both had the potential to do so much better. my freshman year was pathetic i spent everyday in my room watching upn till the simpsons came on then watched fox till i went to sleep, sophmore and juinor have been just filled with rehabs and aa meetings and court dates, i want the those three years of my life back so bad...i hate looking through old years books always reminds me of the time of my life that has been waisted