On the sex appeal of literary crushes (more or less)

[donnaimmaculata]

Last week, it took my fancy to read Lucy Maud Montgomery's "Emily" series. I've never really been into the series as a child and have never owned and read the first book, so I hunted it down on the Internet. And then I met Dean Priest.

She heard him say, "My God!" softly to himself. [...] "How can I help you?" said Dean Priest hoarsely, as if to

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[arachnethe2]

As for Snack........ I'd believe it, but it's so unhappy!!! More like mutual rape. ;_; And if it were to be happy... I just don't think I'd buy it. They hate each other. Vs Snape and Harry, who each hate what the other represents, but, as we've begun to see, could respect and even like each other as people.

You know, Harry and Draco are hating each other as well and look what the fandom made of it. :) Now you might say: But Harry never send Draco to the Shrieking Shack, or vice versa. Right, but Draco could send Harry to Voldemort or rescue him from Voldemort as well. I mean, regardless what you are writing, in the very end it depends onto the story background. A happy Snack has, for example, no chance in time of OotP. The guys there are simply too fucked up for it and the happenings of PoA are still hanging heavily in the air. And the exceptions like An Ass of Himself are confirming the rule. Myself I don't like these mutual rape stories and neither the picture Bed of Nails from fielding. But these, as far I'm willing to admit, weren't meant to be nice. The best Snack's I read were future fics. You know, these ones, where the war ended, Sirius got free of the charges and full different circumstances are in charge.

At least - at least for myself - I'm a big believer of the power of forgiveness. In my life I was already twice very close to hate. In one case it was a person, in the other a whole nation. To hate is very easy: it suddenly makes the view of your world very clear and simple to follow the lines. But it is very dreadful and tiresome as well. And if you give yourself into too much it destroys you in the end. To forgive is the rescue of yourself, but simultaneously the most difficult thing ever. To do it I needed in the first place lots of strength, lot of time to change myself and my life. But in the end it was the best thing I have ever done.

Perhaps this is another reason for myself writing and liking Snack so much. These grudges and fights in the canon are getting tiresome more and more. And I'm afraid, that JKR will keep it so to the very end. I the second last chapter of GoF JKR set a wonderful promise for me, that in the next books Sirius and Severus will come to a sort of grudging acceptance. Nothing of that happened in OotP, which turned for me to be the biggest disapointment of the book. Bigger than Sirius' death, actually. So as you see, someone has to fix it. ;) I don't harbor any illusion that someone of the kinky crowd out there will ever buy it, but I have been always more idealistic than realistic and this is all fun fiction in the end. Because - and this is the probably the truest argument for myself writing Snack - in my head the guys are all disgustingly mushy hearts and flowers that I HAVE to write it down to get rid of this annoying image. :)

[donnaimmaculata]

While I can't see Severus and Sirius ending up happily together in the OotP context, I can definitely see them being on the same level at last: At school Sirius used to be in a stronger position, and I absolutely can't accept any Snape/Black (apart from rape) set in the MWPP era. Then Sirius was in no position at all, because being in Azkaban was like being dead, really. In the narrative presence, however, they are equally fucked up and equally constricted by circumstances. (What a good and stable basis for a happy love affair...) - You see, the matter of power being balanced is indeed very important for me.

that in the next books Sirius and Severus will come to a sort of grudging acceptance.

I definitely saw the possibility, too. While I like the mutual hate, I think it is possible to make them come to an understanding of sorts about some things. In a way, their grudge parallels the development (or lack thereof) of Draco's character. When it was introduced, it had a lot of potential, which Rowling simply neglects. Fortunately, this is what the fandom is for - fixing the author's omissions ;-)