Year 2003 in detail
This is what 2003 was like for me.
I broke up with Kansho.
I left for a month, and came back. Those stupid rumors started, about Kansho having a fling with Forks younger sister. And then some other people (who really hated him for no real reason XD;) telling me Kansho just wanted to have sex with me and really loved Only-something stupid like that. I think they told me those mean things so they could have me turn against him because they didnt like how they hurt Only's feelings. Kansho didnt mean to hurt Onlys feelings, I think they missed that part of the story. Kansho didnt know she even liked him until she became upset. I didn't need them to turn me against him, I just did it on my own to mask my real feelings.
I was feeling so pathetic and regretful.
In February, Jay and Oracle broke up, and I am still not confident with the reason that I know now. I just remember being happy, but sad at the same time. Apart of me enjoyed seeing them together, and spending time as a group. Once the two broke apart we never hung out anymore.
I was just properly introduced to Fork and Kami. The two of them just had broken up, leaving Kami with a sour taste in her mouth, and Fork seriously heartbroken. Fork, then had a few siblings who were popular with the sleazy girls. It was the same situation with Fork. I remember him being very apathetic towards everything and he stayed in his room all the time which was completely filthy, he never took time away from Sims game on his laptop to clean it.
But before I really met Fork, I helped Kami get her revenge. After, when I knew the truth, I realized that Kami just misunderstood, and she was just very sensitive. Fork had made a new girl-friend named Ani or something like that, and quickly they became close friends, closer than Kami and Fork, and it really bothered her. Suspicion of him cheating with Ani because he was so affectionate with Ani caused Kami to turn against him, masking her hurt.
Kami was never good at expressing her true feelings.
So what we did, was we burned him with an iron, which wasn't very nice, but we thought it was funny then. XD; I thought a lot of mean things were funny. But I cant help being the way I am, I AM JUST EVIL!
When Fork told me his side of the story I tried to explain to Kami the truth of it but she refused to listen. I think she liked holding grudges, and she was pretty damn good at it. She was pretty good at hurting his spirit by insulting him too.
Then one night Kami and I wanted to go out, we ended up picking up our friends, and we headed to a club with fake I.D.s. Kami and I danced with silly male strippers with weiners (probably fake) the size of Florida. Seiben hanged out at the bar, and Jay, Kansho and Neyre were scared of the whole scene and hung out in the bathroom. There, Kami and I met Jack. At first I thought he was such a wierdo. XD;
Once we got tired of the club I got all of my friends and Jack to cram into the car and we went to pizza hut. I tried my first cigarette there,(Jack handed me one) and concluded that smoking is pretty disgusting. At the end of the night Jack exchanged numbers with me, we continued to hang out.
And we hanged out a lot. We used to joke about Kami, Jack, and I being a threesome. We spent time together in Furcadia, my house, and Jacks apartment, mostly. I remember having a lot of fun with those two. No offense, but he was pretty pathetic then and it was easy for me and Kami to beat down on him. >XD
Then Kansho announced that he and Only were to be married. Hearing that...it was like a blow to my heart. But with my new friend he pulled my attention away from giving into those depressing emotions.
At this point, it was around March. Jack was evicted from his crummy apartment by "Yours Truly!", Kami, and her plan of making him homeless backfired because he ended up staying at her place, which was even funnier.
But it'd be better if he ended up living in his car so I exaggerated a little when I was gossiping with Kami one day.
The gossip creeped her out, and she ended up throwing Jack out, leaving him only with his few belongings, his car, and his portfolios. But when Jack and I went out to a house party using his car he got into some fight and a bunch of idiots drove his car with his portfolios in the trunk into the river.
He was now a pathetic homeless bum. But, Clarice didnt think he was pathetic. He was so happy-go-lucky when he was telling me about this fabulous new girl he was dating named Clarice. Kami and I hadn't even seen her and we already didn't like her.
The attention was split. And soon after, our "threesome" was more like a "couple" of just me and Kami. I wondered if Jack knew how much this bothered Kami. Maybe if he did he would understand why she was always giving him 'the cold shoulder'. And why when he tried to commit suicide neither me or Kami wanted to be there to help him out. (which was so fucking mean, but we were really fed up XD;) I was too, but I couldn't hold the grudge the way Kami did. Gradually she grew to hate him just as she hated Fork. Her grudges were so dangerously unhealthy =/ She was holding so much hate it made her depressed, and I stopped seeing her as much.
I ignored the fact that Jack was with Clarice, and when Jack was around me...it seemed he'd ignore it too. We became so touchy-feely flirty another stupid rumor disseminated that Jack was fucking me. This rumor alarmed Kansho because he knew that Jay and I were thinking about being together, and Kansho thought I saw Jay as 'another boytoy', and I would cheat on him, taken from the example of me and Jack at that time. It made me dislike Kansho even more for disencouraging Jay. But it wasn't just Kansho being a disencourager, it felt like the whole world was. (I like to exaggerate XD;)
By June the rumors grew and grew and there was a lot of tension between us friends, or, used-to-be-friends. This was certainly a year of seperation, because before that December everyday me and my friends used to go out and do something fun but with all the broken relationships and depression nobody wanted to make an effort to keep us together. Holding this anger inside of me was making me feel depressed, and I pulled off the "apathetic bitch" to cover it, which made it even worse. I remember Clarice being very close to my friends and hearing my friends go on and on about how great she was, and it REALLY bothered the hell outta me. And there was a time when there was a rumor about Jay and Clarice getting together and Jay kissed Clarice and
"he really liked it", when Kansho heard about it he said it wouldn't be a bad idea for the two of them to get together because he would save himself the trouble of a broken heart from me.
I wanted to rip his head off when he said that.
The end of June, Oracle got together with Kiku after going through all those guys. Once she and Jay broke up she was like, "BAM I AM A SINGLE LADY!" It was very unexpected. XD;
It was July and Jack and I went to London, which was fun-when Jack didnt have a hangover. His hangovers were sooo annoying. XP When I came back I finally got to speak to Jay, we replaced the rumors with truths and we offically got together.
Which supposively means I was to stop fooling around with Jack. By now it was just a hard habit to break, and I had difficulty stopping the words from spilling out of my mouth when Jack was trying to manipulate and persuade me into thinking that being with Jay was a bad idea because we didnt have much in common and I would be frustrated with myself, "because I couldn't be myself". Which was partially true-but only the frustration part. I think Jay and I get along very well.
I met Kenneth end of July, and he had a small crush on me, and then dated Mek, until he announced he was gay and no longer was going to hide that. No comment.
By August I had fallen deep into depression from the build up. I used to go to this metal scrap yard to try to clear my mind, I used to write in a little journal, or just stare at the material and let my thoughts run wild. Depression is the worst feeling to ever feel. I was so uninterested, so inactive. I missed a lot of opportunities of meeting a lot of neat people because I was pushing everyone away. I didnt see a point in my existance. I didnt understand why I felt so down.
I think by now I met Aire and Mek. The 'insult wars' started, and they still occur. Its evil when they get together and insult me. >XO I'M NOT A MONKEY!!! Aire and I used to fight a lot, too.
Nuriko got lost in August. Its probably Aires fault, being that everything bad is his fault. NURIKO BABY COME BACK TO ME! ;__;
Zeth left to become the God of Destruction. And he told me the world was going to end....XD; Scary old guy. He also tried to kill himself because he was feeling guilty of how he treated me when we first met.
A lot of people were depressed in August. Jay was very depressed. I could not stand it. I still dont know why or what he was depressed about.
Jack was depressed because a lot of people didn't approve of him.
Space and Kiku were depressed because they felt ignored.
Fork was depressed because he felt inferior. Oh, and he became an vampire. Once he became a vampire, his personality changed drastically.
Kansho was depressed for a handful of reasons. I think his depression bothered me the most.
By now Jack broke away from Clarice in the middle of August,(Nice bet Kami! XD) and he was infatuated with me. Yes, infatuated, thats what it was. I didnt want to tell him that I kind of felt the same way, and I beat those feelings down until they truly did not exist. I had a lot of feelings for people and about people that existed that I didnt want to exist, and if I were to act upon them or accept them I'd hurt someone elses feelings.
Jack soon got the hint that I wasn't going to show him that I felt the same way and he moved. He and Kenneth soon became interested in eachother. Erm...
I met Irukora and Kuro around the end of the summer. The strangest but most amusing cousins I've met in a long time! They never fail to make me laugh.
September I tried to gathered myself together and deal away with my depression. No more depression! XO So sad, a whole summer, WASTED.
I think it happened in September when Kansho and Only got a divorce because Only found out about Kansho and Clarice. Once Kansho started feeling better about himself he found a bat cave he wanted to live in instead of his home, and then he stole my bat parade! ;_;
I met Rae and Kazu in October. Its a shame those two didn't get married. And its a shame that Rae lost her baby.
By November I was feeling much better about everything and myself. I faced my problems and banished my worries to OBLIVION! XO
I dont hold anything against Kansho anymore, I've forgiven him, I no longer have feelings for Jack, I'm grudge free and happier, and so are most of my friends, and hopefully none of my friends dislike me anymore because of what happened. XD;
In November there was the whole FRUIT BASKET EPISODE. Every guy on the planet turned gay or bisexual! Whoooopideedo! Another annoying trend.
At the end of the year Jack got engaged to Kenneth, which....eh.
I missed some detail on purpose because some secrets just aren't made to be broken, or some inside jokes not to be explained. >D Some things not meant to be shared.
I can't wait to see how this year will turn out. Hopefully much better than this one.
Have a good one!
<3
I broke up with Kansho.
I left for a month, and came back. Those stupid rumors started, about Kansho having a fling with Forks younger sister. And then some other people (who really hated him for no real reason XD;) telling me Kansho just wanted to have sex with me and really loved Only-something stupid like that. I think they told me those mean things so they could have me turn against him because they didnt like how they hurt Only's feelings. Kansho didnt mean to hurt Onlys feelings, I think they missed that part of the story. Kansho didnt know she even liked him until she became upset. I didn't need them to turn me against him, I just did it on my own to mask my real feelings.
I was feeling so pathetic and regretful.
In February, Jay and Oracle broke up, and I am still not confident with the reason that I know now. I just remember being happy, but sad at the same time. Apart of me enjoyed seeing them together, and spending time as a group. Once the two broke apart we never hung out anymore.
I was just properly introduced to Fork and Kami. The two of them just had broken up, leaving Kami with a sour taste in her mouth, and Fork seriously heartbroken. Fork, then had a few siblings who were popular with the sleazy girls. It was the same situation with Fork. I remember him being very apathetic towards everything and he stayed in his room all the time which was completely filthy, he never took time away from Sims game on his laptop to clean it.
But before I really met Fork, I helped Kami get her revenge. After, when I knew the truth, I realized that Kami just misunderstood, and she was just very sensitive. Fork had made a new girl-friend named Ani or something like that, and quickly they became close friends, closer than Kami and Fork, and it really bothered her. Suspicion of him cheating with Ani because he was so affectionate with Ani caused Kami to turn against him, masking her hurt.
Kami was never good at expressing her true feelings.
So what we did, was we burned him with an iron, which wasn't very nice, but we thought it was funny then. XD; I thought a lot of mean things were funny. But I cant help being the way I am, I AM JUST EVIL!
When Fork told me his side of the story I tried to explain to Kami the truth of it but she refused to listen. I think she liked holding grudges, and she was pretty damn good at it. She was pretty good at hurting his spirit by insulting him too.
Then one night Kami and I wanted to go out, we ended up picking up our friends, and we headed to a club with fake I.D.s. Kami and I danced with silly male strippers with weiners (probably fake) the size of Florida. Seiben hanged out at the bar, and Jay, Kansho and Neyre were scared of the whole scene and hung out in the bathroom. There, Kami and I met Jack. At first I thought he was such a wierdo. XD;
Once we got tired of the club I got all of my friends and Jack to cram into the car and we went to pizza hut. I tried my first cigarette there,(Jack handed me one) and concluded that smoking is pretty disgusting. At the end of the night Jack exchanged numbers with me, we continued to hang out.
And we hanged out a lot. We used to joke about Kami, Jack, and I being a threesome. We spent time together in Furcadia, my house, and Jacks apartment, mostly. I remember having a lot of fun with those two. No offense, but he was pretty pathetic then and it was easy for me and Kami to beat down on him. >XD
Then Kansho announced that he and Only were to be married. Hearing that...it was like a blow to my heart. But with my new friend he pulled my attention away from giving into those depressing emotions.
At this point, it was around March. Jack was evicted from his crummy apartment by "Yours Truly!", Kami, and her plan of making him homeless backfired because he ended up staying at her place, which was even funnier.
But it'd be better if he ended up living in his car so I exaggerated a little when I was gossiping with Kami one day.
The gossip creeped her out, and she ended up throwing Jack out, leaving him only with his few belongings, his car, and his portfolios. But when Jack and I went out to a house party using his car he got into some fight and a bunch of idiots drove his car with his portfolios in the trunk into the river.
He was now a pathetic homeless bum. But, Clarice didnt think he was pathetic. He was so happy-go-lucky when he was telling me about this fabulous new girl he was dating named Clarice. Kami and I hadn't even seen her and we already didn't like her.
The attention was split. And soon after, our "threesome" was more like a "couple" of just me and Kami. I wondered if Jack knew how much this bothered Kami. Maybe if he did he would understand why she was always giving him 'the cold shoulder'. And why when he tried to commit suicide neither me or Kami wanted to be there to help him out. (which was so fucking mean, but we were really fed up XD;) I was too, but I couldn't hold the grudge the way Kami did. Gradually she grew to hate him just as she hated Fork. Her grudges were so dangerously unhealthy =/ She was holding so much hate it made her depressed, and I stopped seeing her as much.
I ignored the fact that Jack was with Clarice, and when Jack was around me...it seemed he'd ignore it too. We became so touchy-feely flirty another stupid rumor disseminated that Jack was fucking me. This rumor alarmed Kansho because he knew that Jay and I were thinking about being together, and Kansho thought I saw Jay as 'another boytoy', and I would cheat on him, taken from the example of me and Jack at that time. It made me dislike Kansho even more for disencouraging Jay. But it wasn't just Kansho being a disencourager, it felt like the whole world was. (I like to exaggerate XD;)
By June the rumors grew and grew and there was a lot of tension between us friends, or, used-to-be-friends. This was certainly a year of seperation, because before that December everyday me and my friends used to go out and do something fun but with all the broken relationships and depression nobody wanted to make an effort to keep us together. Holding this anger inside of me was making me feel depressed, and I pulled off the "apathetic bitch" to cover it, which made it even worse. I remember Clarice being very close to my friends and hearing my friends go on and on about how great she was, and it REALLY bothered the hell outta me. And there was a time when there was a rumor about Jay and Clarice getting together and Jay kissed Clarice and
"he really liked it", when Kansho heard about it he said it wouldn't be a bad idea for the two of them to get together because he would save himself the trouble of a broken heart from me.
I wanted to rip his head off when he said that.
The end of June, Oracle got together with Kiku after going through all those guys. Once she and Jay broke up she was like, "BAM I AM A SINGLE LADY!" It was very unexpected. XD;
It was July and Jack and I went to London, which was fun-when Jack didnt have a hangover. His hangovers were sooo annoying. XP When I came back I finally got to speak to Jay, we replaced the rumors with truths and we offically got together.
Which supposively means I was to stop fooling around with Jack. By now it was just a hard habit to break, and I had difficulty stopping the words from spilling out of my mouth when Jack was trying to manipulate and persuade me into thinking that being with Jay was a bad idea because we didnt have much in common and I would be frustrated with myself, "because I couldn't be myself". Which was partially true-but only the frustration part. I think Jay and I get along very well.
I met Kenneth end of July, and he had a small crush on me, and then dated Mek, until he announced he was gay and no longer was going to hide that. No comment.
By August I had fallen deep into depression from the build up. I used to go to this metal scrap yard to try to clear my mind, I used to write in a little journal, or just stare at the material and let my thoughts run wild. Depression is the worst feeling to ever feel. I was so uninterested, so inactive. I missed a lot of opportunities of meeting a lot of neat people because I was pushing everyone away. I didnt see a point in my existance. I didnt understand why I felt so down.
I think by now I met Aire and Mek. The 'insult wars' started, and they still occur. Its evil when they get together and insult me. >XO I'M NOT A MONKEY!!! Aire and I used to fight a lot, too.
Nuriko got lost in August. Its probably Aires fault, being that everything bad is his fault. NURIKO BABY COME BACK TO ME! ;__;
Zeth left to become the God of Destruction. And he told me the world was going to end....XD; Scary old guy. He also tried to kill himself because he was feeling guilty of how he treated me when we first met.
A lot of people were depressed in August. Jay was very depressed. I could not stand it. I still dont know why or what he was depressed about.
Jack was depressed because a lot of people didn't approve of him.
Space and Kiku were depressed because they felt ignored.
Fork was depressed because he felt inferior. Oh, and he became an vampire. Once he became a vampire, his personality changed drastically.
Kansho was depressed for a handful of reasons. I think his depression bothered me the most.
By now Jack broke away from Clarice in the middle of August,(Nice bet Kami! XD) and he was infatuated with me. Yes, infatuated, thats what it was. I didnt want to tell him that I kind of felt the same way, and I beat those feelings down until they truly did not exist. I had a lot of feelings for people and about people that existed that I didnt want to exist, and if I were to act upon them or accept them I'd hurt someone elses feelings.
Jack soon got the hint that I wasn't going to show him that I felt the same way and he moved. He and Kenneth soon became interested in eachother. Erm...
I met Irukora and Kuro around the end of the summer. The strangest but most amusing cousins I've met in a long time! They never fail to make me laugh.
September I tried to gathered myself together and deal away with my depression. No more depression! XO So sad, a whole summer, WASTED.
I think it happened in September when Kansho and Only got a divorce because Only found out about Kansho and Clarice. Once Kansho started feeling better about himself he found a bat cave he wanted to live in instead of his home, and then he stole my bat parade! ;_;
I met Rae and Kazu in October. Its a shame those two didn't get married. And its a shame that Rae lost her baby.
By November I was feeling much better about everything and myself. I faced my problems and banished my worries to OBLIVION! XO
I dont hold anything against Kansho anymore, I've forgiven him, I no longer have feelings for Jack, I'm grudge free and happier, and so are most of my friends, and hopefully none of my friends dislike me anymore because of what happened. XD;
In November there was the whole FRUIT BASKET EPISODE. Every guy on the planet turned gay or bisexual! Whoooopideedo! Another annoying trend.
At the end of the year Jack got engaged to Kenneth, which....eh.
I missed some detail on purpose because some secrets just aren't made to be broken, or some inside jokes not to be explained. >D Some things not meant to be shared.
I can't wait to see how this year will turn out. Hopefully much better than this one.
Have a good one!
<3