afraid
Tragic past experiences have a tendency to make a person quite defensive.
I hate it.
I wish it could be like it was before, when there was no fear; it just isn't that way anymore.
I get that sick, nervous feeling in the pit of my stomach these days.
I hate it.
I am calloused from the past.
How do I overcome this?
I want to put it behind me.
I hate it.
It is not her fault.
I do not want to hurt her.
I will not allow myself to hurt her.
My eyes well up just thinking about it.
I hate it.
This is not the first time this has happened.
It seems like no matter how much she said she cared, I just couldn't hear her.
Damn it!
I need to overcome this somehow.
Wish I could just make this fear go away.
I hate it.
I hate it.
I wish it could be like it was before, when there was no fear; it just isn't that way anymore.
I get that sick, nervous feeling in the pit of my stomach these days.
I hate it.
I am calloused from the past.
How do I overcome this?
I want to put it behind me.
I hate it.
It is not her fault.
I do not want to hurt her.
I will not allow myself to hurt her.
My eyes well up just thinking about it.
I hate it.
This is not the first time this has happened.
It seems like no matter how much she said she cared, I just couldn't hear her.
Damn it!
I need to overcome this somehow.
Wish I could just make this fear go away.
I hate it.