Life: Part 72107
Hello all
It appears that I only write in this thing when I'm upset. Life's been really good and busy...hence why I haven't written for a billion years. But I've reached a point where I'm faced with unease coupled with a lot of time.
College: I'm excited for college, but I don't know how all this is going to work out. Orientation was absolutely sucky. I spent a majority of it sitting in my room while the other people talked about their drinking/drug experiences or planning a drinking/drug experience for that night. Despite this, I'm still looking forward to college. There's bound to be a person whose life doesn't revolve around illegal substances.
Family: Surprisingly, family is really good. My parents have been lenient about allowing me to go out and they let my spend my money as I like. Why do they have to be so likeable right before I leave?
Friends: Eh. It's been better. I've separated myself from a lot of people so that I can hang out with a core crew. Lately, the core crew have been...not so good. I can't really explain it, when two of your best friends are a couple, you can't but be the third wheel. It doesn't seem like I can avoid them doing their 'couple' thing when my back is turned. It's actually really annoying. What am I supposed to do? Yelling at them will only get them mad. Am I being unfair by wanting them to behave like they did before they started dating...it's not even that, I just want them to know when to be friends and when to be a couple. Mara works all the time, so all I do is hang out with them. I feel like I should let them be as they want. If they're going to be together, it's pretty much inevitable that I'll be pushed out of the picture. College will help me let go. Besides, who needs friends when you have Mara.
Girlfriend: Mara and I are good. We reached a rough patch in our relationship, but I think that we've overcome it. We've entered a stage where we're trying to be individuals while still being a couple. Mara has crafted her world to revolve around me, she love me so much and she'd do anything to be with me. This is why I feel guilty that I haven't done the same for her. I'm not sure if I'm willing to depend on someone as my one source of happiness. I don't think I can explain this, but I think my girlfriend loves me more than I love her. :/ She's going to Spain for her first semester of college - this will either ruin our relationship...or make it that much stronger.
Life: It's been better...if it was as good as it used to be then I wouldn't be writing in this lol. There's too much self-made drama in my life. The new/last Harry Potter book will pretty much make my life...so I know there'll be some good in the future.
PEACE
It appears that I only write in this thing when I'm upset. Life's been really good and busy...hence why I haven't written for a billion years. But I've reached a point where I'm faced with unease coupled with a lot of time.
College: I'm excited for college, but I don't know how all this is going to work out. Orientation was absolutely sucky. I spent a majority of it sitting in my room while the other people talked about their drinking/drug experiences or planning a drinking/drug experience for that night. Despite this, I'm still looking forward to college. There's bound to be a person whose life doesn't revolve around illegal substances.
Family: Surprisingly, family is really good. My parents have been lenient about allowing me to go out and they let my spend my money as I like. Why do they have to be so likeable right before I leave?
Friends: Eh. It's been better. I've separated myself from a lot of people so that I can hang out with a core crew. Lately, the core crew have been...not so good. I can't really explain it, when two of your best friends are a couple, you can't but be the third wheel. It doesn't seem like I can avoid them doing their 'couple' thing when my back is turned. It's actually really annoying. What am I supposed to do? Yelling at them will only get them mad. Am I being unfair by wanting them to behave like they did before they started dating...it's not even that, I just want them to know when to be friends and when to be a couple. Mara works all the time, so all I do is hang out with them. I feel like I should let them be as they want. If they're going to be together, it's pretty much inevitable that I'll be pushed out of the picture. College will help me let go. Besides, who needs friends when you have Mara.
Girlfriend: Mara and I are good. We reached a rough patch in our relationship, but I think that we've overcome it. We've entered a stage where we're trying to be individuals while still being a couple. Mara has crafted her world to revolve around me, she love me so much and she'd do anything to be with me. This is why I feel guilty that I haven't done the same for her. I'm not sure if I'm willing to depend on someone as my one source of happiness. I don't think I can explain this, but I think my girlfriend loves me more than I love her. :/ She's going to Spain for her first semester of college - this will either ruin our relationship...or make it that much stronger.
Life: It's been better...if it was as good as it used to be then I wouldn't be writing in this lol. There's too much self-made drama in my life. The new/last Harry Potter book will pretty much make my life...so I know there'll be some good in the future.
PEACE