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I move into my apartment in exactly one week and I'm so pumped! My mom and I also had a talk the other night. She said it would b a really bad idea to move out ending on a bad note with my step dad. I kind of took that into consideration but then again I didn't. I really don't see how our not getting along is really any of my fault. I didn't do anything to piss him off, he's the one who gives me the cold sholder. I don't exactly know how she expects me to fix anything because it's kind of impossible right now. I say hello and goodbye and get just about nothing back from him. I honestly tip toe around the house when and if I'm even home just to please him and not make any noise. I do my chores and everything else. She said asking him to help me move would be a good idea but I think that would be awkward since we don't even talk at the moment. I guess I could ask him though. But when we were talking she tried to make me feel guilty. I honestly consider none of this to be my fault, I haven't done anything wrong. And if he doesn't hate me then he has a funny way of showing it. I do agree it is a bad idea to end on a bad note and that I would regret it for the rest of my life, but I don't know how I'm suppose to do anything about it. I have one week to maybe fix it though.
I'm also getting a little nervous about moving though. There's so many weird people out there I have no idea what could happen, and being on the ground level really isn't that comforting. At least I'm not moving out by myself, that would be really freaky. But I think I'm more excited that anything else. It's going to suck actually going grocery shopping with your own money and paying all these bills. I'm going to be so broke. I don't know how I'm going to save up for tuition for the spring semester. I barely made it this summer for the fall semester. I'll definitely be on a tight budget. And then I want to go to Mexico for spring break and I don't think that's going to happen anymore now that I think about it because I won't have any money. Damn it sucks knowing I'm going to be broke.
I have almost completely lost my tan and that is somewhat depressing. I really haven't gone outside that much this summer. I actually haven't done any of the things I wanted to do this summer. I should re-prioritize.
And I have no idea what is going on but I am super tired all the time now.
I also don't know what I'm going to do Friday since I have the day off. I guess I'll have to wait and see.
I'm also getting a little nervous about moving though. There's so many weird people out there I have no idea what could happen, and being on the ground level really isn't that comforting. At least I'm not moving out by myself, that would be really freaky. But I think I'm more excited that anything else. It's going to suck actually going grocery shopping with your own money and paying all these bills. I'm going to be so broke. I don't know how I'm going to save up for tuition for the spring semester. I barely made it this summer for the fall semester. I'll definitely be on a tight budget. And then I want to go to Mexico for spring break and I don't think that's going to happen anymore now that I think about it because I won't have any money. Damn it sucks knowing I'm going to be broke.
I have almost completely lost my tan and that is somewhat depressing. I really haven't gone outside that much this summer. I actually haven't done any of the things I wanted to do this summer. I should re-prioritize.
And I have no idea what is going on but I am super tired all the time now.
I also don't know what I'm going to do Friday since I have the day off. I guess I'll have to wait and see.