big confessions
It's been a week now since you've been ignoring me. A week of silence from both of us. I really don't know what to feel and what to answer if someone asks me about it...I do wanna talk about it as they say...
However, I want to write this blog for you while I'm still in stage of moving on..while my feelings for you is still here...while i still remember that i love you..
I want to thank you for coming into my life though it was like a thunder that stoke me.. I never expected that we will be like this..It's too painful to see you looking at me but ignores me...I'm too sorry that even Manong Paul knew how we're doing...You knew me, i can't resist a friend getting mad at me or ignoring me...but however you still manage to do it....it's okay!!! Life is really like that..
You kept on telling me how much you love me and how you need me..but i'm sorry i can't feel it..I had this bad feeling on me that i need to compete with someone just to be with you and just to feel that love of yours..
Worst is that someone is a close friend of mine. I don't want to hurt her again..coz i already asked for apology before about the same story...remember???
Honestly, i chose to love you back..However, things get complicated and you also started to stay away from me..
I took the risk of loving you, though i always say that we're just friends...nothing but friends!!!! Deep inside is a feeling that needs to burst out.. I want to tell right in front of you how i got hurt when you're appraising her in front of me..though sometimes i knew it's only a joke...i'm hurt,....i got jealous,,..i'm sorry....that i love you!!
I keep on telling you that I don't expect from your sweetness, your actions and your words...But hey! Can you not feel it???
I'm sorry i lied...It hurts me coz i expected something from you....I'm a fool!!!! We're not committed!!!! you're not even courting me....That's the painful part...
Why are you doing this to me???
Why are you hurting me this way????
I've been with you when you're alone,lonely and broken...I knew you're story much more than anyone else...
I rode to your corniest joke....and listened to your boring stories!!!!!
Is that how you treat your LOVE???
you're breaking me into pieces........
I don't deserve any of these....you know that!!!!!
I don't deserve to be an OPTION....but i deserve to be the ONLY CHOiCE!!!!!
are you dumping me now coz you're done of me????
answer me...
i'm waiting til thursday!!!!! coz up to thursday(march 25) you're still my special someone...
after that day, and things not yet done for US....
I'm sorry but I'll be giving up on you...coz it will be easy for us to be strangers again..coz i'll not be expecting you even just talking or saying hi to me....
i know that's the only way!!
However, I want to write this blog for you while I'm still in stage of moving on..while my feelings for you is still here...while i still remember that i love you..
I want to thank you for coming into my life though it was like a thunder that stoke me.. I never expected that we will be like this..It's too painful to see you looking at me but ignores me...I'm too sorry that even Manong Paul knew how we're doing...You knew me, i can't resist a friend getting mad at me or ignoring me...but however you still manage to do it....it's okay!!! Life is really like that..
You kept on telling me how much you love me and how you need me..but i'm sorry i can't feel it..I had this bad feeling on me that i need to compete with someone just to be with you and just to feel that love of yours..
Worst is that someone is a close friend of mine. I don't want to hurt her again..coz i already asked for apology before about the same story...remember???
Honestly, i chose to love you back..However, things get complicated and you also started to stay away from me..
I took the risk of loving you, though i always say that we're just friends...nothing but friends!!!! Deep inside is a feeling that needs to burst out.. I want to tell right in front of you how i got hurt when you're appraising her in front of me..though sometimes i knew it's only a joke...i'm hurt,....i got jealous,,..i'm sorry....that i love you!!
I keep on telling you that I don't expect from your sweetness, your actions and your words...But hey! Can you not feel it???
I'm sorry i lied...It hurts me coz i expected something from you....I'm a fool!!!! We're not committed!!!! you're not even courting me....That's the painful part...
Why are you doing this to me???
Why are you hurting me this way????
I've been with you when you're alone,lonely and broken...I knew you're story much more than anyone else...
I rode to your corniest joke....and listened to your boring stories!!!!!
Is that how you treat your LOVE???
you're breaking me into pieces........
I don't deserve any of these....you know that!!!!!
I don't deserve to be an OPTION....but i deserve to be the ONLY CHOiCE!!!!!
are you dumping me now coz you're done of me????
answer me...
i'm waiting til thursday!!!!! coz up to thursday(march 25) you're still my special someone...
after that day, and things not yet done for US....
I'm sorry but I'll be giving up on you...coz it will be easy for us to be strangers again..coz i'll not be expecting you even just talking or saying hi to me....
i know that's the only way!!