(WM) 24 - Quotes
"I would rather betray the whole world than let the world betray me."
She'd read the quote hours ago in some article and the minute her eyes had scanned across the word, she had the urge to call. She'd shook it off, but there was this constant nagging feeling there that wouldn't quite go away. The words had jumped out at her and fed into something deep inside of her.
She hadn't spoken to Methos in months. Not since before she had gone into hiding with Nathan and really, it had been completely intentional for many reasons. She hadn't wanted to endanger him, or moreso Alexa, by contacting him. She knew Roland would keep an eye on those she had been closest to, though the thought of her and Methos being close was a laughable suggestion in her mind. Still, she knew Roland would be watching him and that made it near impossible to try and make contact. Also... the last time they had seen each other... it really hadn't gone like she'd planned. At all. She'd been under the influence of Roland's manipulations and was still not ready to admit that a part of her had simply missed being wanted by the man who had probably known her better than anyone. And finally; the reason that probably meant more to her than any of the others; she felt like it would be a betrayal. To Nathan.
She hadn't told him about the last time she saw Methos and hadn't seen a reason to at the time. She and he had been apart for quite a while when it happened, after all. But now? Now things were much different. Nathan's opinion of her meant so much and just the thought of speaking with Methos; whose opinion had meant so much before; felt like the worst kind of betrayal.
But now her fingers toyed with the antenna of the cordless next to her couch and she eyed it as though it would take control of her and make her dial. She shouldn't. She shouldn't. She...
Her fingers grasped the phone and pulled it off of it's base, pausing only a second before setting back down. No.
There was a reason she was doing this. A reason that calling Methos plagued her. A reason she feared that she would demolish everything they had worked so hard to build together. Another quote rippled through her mind and she felt it with every fiber of her being as she stood up and forcibly moved herself away from the phone.
The only thing we have to fear is fear itself.
She'd read the quote hours ago in some article and the minute her eyes had scanned across the word, she had the urge to call. She'd shook it off, but there was this constant nagging feeling there that wouldn't quite go away. The words had jumped out at her and fed into something deep inside of her.
She hadn't spoken to Methos in months. Not since before she had gone into hiding with Nathan and really, it had been completely intentional for many reasons. She hadn't wanted to endanger him, or moreso Alexa, by contacting him. She knew Roland would keep an eye on those she had been closest to, though the thought of her and Methos being close was a laughable suggestion in her mind. Still, she knew Roland would be watching him and that made it near impossible to try and make contact. Also... the last time they had seen each other... it really hadn't gone like she'd planned. At all. She'd been under the influence of Roland's manipulations and was still not ready to admit that a part of her had simply missed being wanted by the man who had probably known her better than anyone. And finally; the reason that probably meant more to her than any of the others; she felt like it would be a betrayal. To Nathan.
She hadn't told him about the last time she saw Methos and hadn't seen a reason to at the time. She and he had been apart for quite a while when it happened, after all. But now? Now things were much different. Nathan's opinion of her meant so much and just the thought of speaking with Methos; whose opinion had meant so much before; felt like the worst kind of betrayal.
But now her fingers toyed with the antenna of the cordless next to her couch and she eyed it as though it would take control of her and make her dial. She shouldn't. She shouldn't. She...
Her fingers grasped the phone and pulled it off of it's base, pausing only a second before setting back down. No.
There was a reason she was doing this. A reason that calling Methos plagued her. A reason she feared that she would demolish everything they had worked so hard to build together. Another quote rippled through her mind and she felt it with every fiber of her being as she stood up and forcibly moved herself away from the phone.
The only thing we have to fear is fear itself.