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Went to the dance yesterday...I want to fit in so bad...sometimes I wish i was straight...I'd fit in so much easier, and I wouldn't get made fun of by every guy I walked by. I got to the dance and I was having a good time, but there's always that one person who says something that ruins your night. The kid didn't even know me and he was making fun of me for being gay. I wish I could just fit in so bad and be straight. I would give anything to be straight, or atleast to have the choice of coming out of the closet again...if I could make the decision all over again, knowing what I know today, I think I would probably stay in the closet. I know this girl who just came out as bisexual to a couple close friends, and someone over heard and it was around the school by lunch time. She told me that everyone was making fun of her, and it hurt so bad. She was almost crying when she told me this. Then she asked me a question. Does it ever go away? Do they ever stop? And I told her. I was like "No, there will always be someone who makes fun of you because of who you are. No matter where you go. Work, school, shopping at the mall...doesn't matter, someone will always do something to hurt you. Well, you know what? I'm sick of it. I can't take it anymore. I don't deserve it, I haven't done anything to any of these people, but they all make fun of me anyways. Well, you know what people? You can suck me. For all of you who wanted to know what was wrong with me at the dance, this is it. I was tearing myself apart inside wishing I were straight, or atleast hadn't come out of the closet. But on the bright side me, Kayla, and Kayla made up, so we're cool. Whatever, I'm out.