Screw out of my life...you're not invited and never will be
so today was basically a boring normal day...except it was pajama day! I wore my pajamas and had, perhaps, the most comfortable day of the year. I have full chorus rehersal tomorrow, so no gym for me...damn it, I love soccer, I always miss the good classes...oh well...tomorrow is twin and hat day too...me and steph are going as twins, we're gonna wear a t-shirt and faded jeans and then we're wearing our etnies shoes...I'm wondering if our laces should match tho...whattya think? Will Mr. Morill still count us?? and on Wed. is school pride day...I get to wear the new t-shirt I ordered for our class...coolio. Come on sophomores we have the power to beat the Seniors altogether in Winter Carnival. Let's make them cry one last time before they leave this school forever!!! Yea well, anyways...today I got the results of the interview...you'll all be happy to know that I didn't get accepted...Oh well, one less commitment I have to destroy when I run away...lol. I have CCD tonite too, thats just one more place I have to pretend to be someone I'm not...it's not fair...who the hell is the church to tell me who I can be and who I can't. And it's not like I have a choice about this, I didn't just wake up and say "Oh I'm gonna be gay!" No, I've felt this way forever. And fuck you Amanda. You think I can help being who I am?? You actually truly think that I had a choice about this?? The only choice I had in this was whether to tell people or not, and why should I live in hididng? To please the church? To please society? Or, or better yet, to please my parents?? None of them are a good reason. You have no idea what you're talking about Amanda, so don't even pretend to know. Fuck out of my business and keep you bullshit opinions to your self okay??? Because no one asked how you felt about gay people, and no one ever wants to hear about it from you...so just leave me alone and let me be me