Second Semester of Senior year.
My life has been pretty decent lately.
I can't complain much. School's started second term. I'm still itching to be done with high school. But I guess there's nothing I can change about that. Nowadays I begin my mornings with American Government, which was an interesting class until we started talking about history. After that I share French 1 with Taylor and Patrick, two friends from classes I had last semester. I don't talk to Patrick often as he sits far away.
Then it's onto Newspaper. Stephanie dropped, she was an editor, so that left us in quite a position. But in order to fill the void, we promoted Chelsea to an editor's position and brought Jenna into the class. I knew of Jenna before I actually met her, because Brit used to flirt with her while I was still with Heather. And I met Jenna once (granted I didn't remember that until she reminded me). It's nice to have her in our class because I really enjoy making new friends.
Drama 4 is my last class of the day. Despite the fact that I have no idea what I'll be doing for the play, it's still my favorite class.
I think part of my eagerness to make friends may stem from the fact that I haven't spent much time with Dylan.
In fact, the last time we hung out was after me and Bobbi had a fight. I'd texted him the cliffnotes and he said he understood where I was coming from (Because Dylan also happens to be a bit obsessive and moody). So he invited me to go bowling with him and Lee to get me out of the house.
Well, first off, I'm not even a big fan of bowling because I don't appreciate sports I royally suck at. But I was convinced to make it a good time. Lee didn't seem so bad, at least not on a day that I was desperate to be out of the house, and I tried to make jokes. Bowling lasted about an hour.
Then suddenly we were leaving and the next plans I knew consisted of Dylan telling Lee he'd see him in half an hour because that's how long it took to take me home.
Which was quite a disappointment. Especially because just the week before I comforted Dylan while he quit his job, was bawling about it, and then at the same time Lee made a bitchy comment about the fact. So yeah, consider that to be quite a let down. Before he quite his job he blew me off after I sat through his half hour BETA meeting only for him to tell me he was going to be at school until 6pm. So I had my mom pick me up.
I guess I honestly need a new best friend. Because hell, they keep you grounded and all that jazz. But I don't feel like putting in the effort of telling my life story again.
I enjoyed hanging out with Christine, an old friend from middle school, but I honestly just miss having Dylan around. He practically lived at my house over the summer. And now he practically lives with his boyfriend.
I don't know, I try not to fault him too much because I know I'm typically busy too. With Bobbi and all. But a Starbucks run once and a while would be nice. Or a text, really. He spends most of his time in Newspaper doing English AP homework. So even then, we really only talk enough to get all of the breaking news out of the way.
And hell, when Dylan was single me and Bobbi hung out with him a couple times. And I don't recall ever really dropping him. But perhaps I did.
Bobbi keeps saying I need to have a talk with him, but I feel like that would be a lot of effort that may just end badly. Or that it would be hypocritical of me to ask him not to hang out with Lee so much. So far I haven't said anything. Except expressing my desire to spend time with him. I figured him not working everyday would be an opportunity, in some twisted way, but then he just pointed out that he's going to be busy with tennis season. Even though I used to sit in his car for an hour waiting for him last year. The reason we couldn't hang last week was because he had Mr and Mrs Stratford practice, which I'm proud of him for, and I supported him with, but he even told me after practice he went to Lee's house. Couldn't he just as easily come to mine once?
I guess I'm just hurt.
Anyways. Drama's really great. I felt kind of like a misfit at the beginning of the class, and I still don't exactly fit in with the tightest clique in there. But I'm close. I've started talking to people more. Hell, one girl even made me a bracelet. And besides, a lot of kids in that class aren't really in the 'clique' either. So I'm ok with that.
We did a really cool meditation exercise the other day. It was extremely relaxing and made me want to try meditation sometime. Then yesterday Mrs. Dertain had Sara and me read a skit. It was interesting and she said we did really well. And she laughed =]
Bobbi and I are doing well. Last weekend was really great. We had amazing sex. And then helped each other with our essays. It was nice. And felt super domestic. Until I had to go home. Which is always a bit disappointing.
She helped me with my essays last night. A lot actually. I appreciate it. And I think we had a pretty good night. Although at one point I was selfish. She started telling me about this great opportunity for her to study abroad for 3 weeks and get one of her required courses out of the way for a pretty great price. But to be honest, all I could think of was the distance, so I know I didn't have the reaction she was hoping for. I said I'd support her but that I'd really rather not talk about it. I didn't really realize that 3 weeks wasn't too long. Until she pointed that out. I just imagined her leaving. And I don't really give her enough credit. Because 3 weeks isn't long enough for our feelings to fade. Hell, I don't think 3 years would be long enough. I apologized a lot. Because I know I didn't have the expected reaction. And I was being illogical. I'm still not fond of the thought of her leaving. But if she did it would be in May, so I'd have time to adjust to the idea. I feel like I could handle it better now that I've talked to my mom a bit. And it really is a great opportunity.
I'm really anxious about my application, but there really isn't much I can do now that I've sent it to dad for editing. I'm just hoping I get in. But if not I think my dad might be able to persuade them.
I really hope Dylan comes around, but if not I'll move on. I'm not completely helpless without him.
All in all, I'm living a great life.
I'm finally with someone I've wanted to be with for a while. And she's amazing to me.
We're talking about buying Poesy's for our anniversary. =]
I love that girl.
I don't think I appreciate her efforts enough. But I'm working on that.
I can't complain much. School's started second term. I'm still itching to be done with high school. But I guess there's nothing I can change about that. Nowadays I begin my mornings with American Government, which was an interesting class until we started talking about history. After that I share French 1 with Taylor and Patrick, two friends from classes I had last semester. I don't talk to Patrick often as he sits far away.
Then it's onto Newspaper. Stephanie dropped, she was an editor, so that left us in quite a position. But in order to fill the void, we promoted Chelsea to an editor's position and brought Jenna into the class. I knew of Jenna before I actually met her, because Brit used to flirt with her while I was still with Heather. And I met Jenna once (granted I didn't remember that until she reminded me). It's nice to have her in our class because I really enjoy making new friends.
Drama 4 is my last class of the day. Despite the fact that I have no idea what I'll be doing for the play, it's still my favorite class.
I think part of my eagerness to make friends may stem from the fact that I haven't spent much time with Dylan.
In fact, the last time we hung out was after me and Bobbi had a fight. I'd texted him the cliffnotes and he said he understood where I was coming from (Because Dylan also happens to be a bit obsessive and moody). So he invited me to go bowling with him and Lee to get me out of the house.
Well, first off, I'm not even a big fan of bowling because I don't appreciate sports I royally suck at. But I was convinced to make it a good time. Lee didn't seem so bad, at least not on a day that I was desperate to be out of the house, and I tried to make jokes. Bowling lasted about an hour.
Then suddenly we were leaving and the next plans I knew consisted of Dylan telling Lee he'd see him in half an hour because that's how long it took to take me home.
Which was quite a disappointment. Especially because just the week before I comforted Dylan while he quit his job, was bawling about it, and then at the same time Lee made a bitchy comment about the fact. So yeah, consider that to be quite a let down. Before he quite his job he blew me off after I sat through his half hour BETA meeting only for him to tell me he was going to be at school until 6pm. So I had my mom pick me up.
I guess I honestly need a new best friend. Because hell, they keep you grounded and all that jazz. But I don't feel like putting in the effort of telling my life story again.
I enjoyed hanging out with Christine, an old friend from middle school, but I honestly just miss having Dylan around. He practically lived at my house over the summer. And now he practically lives with his boyfriend.
I don't know, I try not to fault him too much because I know I'm typically busy too. With Bobbi and all. But a Starbucks run once and a while would be nice. Or a text, really. He spends most of his time in Newspaper doing English AP homework. So even then, we really only talk enough to get all of the breaking news out of the way.
And hell, when Dylan was single me and Bobbi hung out with him a couple times. And I don't recall ever really dropping him. But perhaps I did.
Bobbi keeps saying I need to have a talk with him, but I feel like that would be a lot of effort that may just end badly. Or that it would be hypocritical of me to ask him not to hang out with Lee so much. So far I haven't said anything. Except expressing my desire to spend time with him. I figured him not working everyday would be an opportunity, in some twisted way, but then he just pointed out that he's going to be busy with tennis season. Even though I used to sit in his car for an hour waiting for him last year. The reason we couldn't hang last week was because he had Mr and Mrs Stratford practice, which I'm proud of him for, and I supported him with, but he even told me after practice he went to Lee's house. Couldn't he just as easily come to mine once?
I guess I'm just hurt.
Anyways. Drama's really great. I felt kind of like a misfit at the beginning of the class, and I still don't exactly fit in with the tightest clique in there. But I'm close. I've started talking to people more. Hell, one girl even made me a bracelet. And besides, a lot of kids in that class aren't really in the 'clique' either. So I'm ok with that.
We did a really cool meditation exercise the other day. It was extremely relaxing and made me want to try meditation sometime. Then yesterday Mrs. Dertain had Sara and me read a skit. It was interesting and she said we did really well. And she laughed =]
Bobbi and I are doing well. Last weekend was really great. We had amazing sex. And then helped each other with our essays. It was nice. And felt super domestic. Until I had to go home. Which is always a bit disappointing.
She helped me with my essays last night. A lot actually. I appreciate it. And I think we had a pretty good night. Although at one point I was selfish. She started telling me about this great opportunity for her to study abroad for 3 weeks and get one of her required courses out of the way for a pretty great price. But to be honest, all I could think of was the distance, so I know I didn't have the reaction she was hoping for. I said I'd support her but that I'd really rather not talk about it. I didn't really realize that 3 weeks wasn't too long. Until she pointed that out. I just imagined her leaving. And I don't really give her enough credit. Because 3 weeks isn't long enough for our feelings to fade. Hell, I don't think 3 years would be long enough. I apologized a lot. Because I know I didn't have the expected reaction. And I was being illogical. I'm still not fond of the thought of her leaving. But if she did it would be in May, so I'd have time to adjust to the idea. I feel like I could handle it better now that I've talked to my mom a bit. And it really is a great opportunity.
I'm really anxious about my application, but there really isn't much I can do now that I've sent it to dad for editing. I'm just hoping I get in. But if not I think my dad might be able to persuade them.
I really hope Dylan comes around, but if not I'll move on. I'm not completely helpless without him.
All in all, I'm living a great life.
I'm finally with someone I've wanted to be with for a while. And she's amazing to me.
We're talking about buying Poesy's for our anniversary. =]
I love that girl.
I don't think I appreciate her efforts enough. But I'm working on that.