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it doesnt feel like a relationship anymore, i don't know whos drifting away at this point
i feel as if i've stayed at the same point while she has moved along with her life,
i feel as if i have all the time in the world and don't at the same time
it could be from the lack of work on my part and the abundance of work and school on hers
or it could just be bad timing thats the cause for my not seeing her
i just really hope that whats happened three times before doesnt happen again cause i think
this would be the final time and i don't think i could handle it.
i fear that i will be the one to bring it upon us this final tme, and if i do
i know there would be no turning back from my desicion.
fuck i hate being a pessimist.
i'm happy my smokes just got here.
and i'm happy i got to get it off my chest
even though it was to my mom.
she just sat there and listened and thats all i can ask for from anyone,
i doubt i could have brought it up to my love and i fear that will be my greatest downfall.
i feel as if i've stayed at the same point while she has moved along with her life,
i feel as if i have all the time in the world and don't at the same time
it could be from the lack of work on my part and the abundance of work and school on hers
or it could just be bad timing thats the cause for my not seeing her
i just really hope that whats happened three times before doesnt happen again cause i think
this would be the final time and i don't think i could handle it.
i fear that i will be the one to bring it upon us this final tme, and if i do
i know there would be no turning back from my desicion.
fuck i hate being a pessimist.
i'm happy my smokes just got here.
and i'm happy i got to get it off my chest
even though it was to my mom.
she just sat there and listened and thats all i can ask for from anyone,
i doubt i could have brought it up to my love and i fear that will be my greatest downfall.