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[domsgurll]

I'm better today. I haven't tried to off myself yet.(joke) I woke up at seven and went and got a coffee then got some of my homework done and took a shower. I think that i'm okay today. I'm going to see a psychiatrist today. I don't think I can tell him about my arm. It's just too much. I need to keep it to myself for a while. I know, it's just my excuse so that I can keep doing it. But I need something. I have nothing right now. Maybe if I went out and got a man and took the time to work on something instead of being cooped up at home all the time bored, then I'd be okay. Maybe if I just throw myself fully into school then it will go away. I hope! I want to be ok. I have to be a good example for my neices.
I still haven't told my mom about my arm. Maybe I should, but I just think that it would be one more stresser and she's about ready to have a heart attack as it is. I'll just keep it to myself and you guys for now. It's nice to have someone there to talk about it to. And you guys are so great.
Loves,
jennifer

'and you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
or the moment of truth in your lies
when everything seems like the movies
you bleed just to know you're alive'
goo-goo dolls
iris