What's wrong with me?
What's so wrong with my life that I've been degraded to this place that everytime I get bored I want to cut my wrist. It's a very painful place and I'm kind of scared. I need help badly. God I just want to be rescued from my own head. I want to feel better, I want to go outside and be excited because it's sunny and it hasn't been sunny for two weeks. I want to be able to look at a flower and smile and I can't. I just want to be happy. But at the same time I don't want to quit feeling like this. It's so nice that I'm so close to breaking point. When I break and cut my wrist it feels good. It's nice letting the blood come to the surface and I kinda wish that I wasn't such a pussy and could push the razor down just a little more. It would be nice to get the blood to actually flow freely donwn my arm. That would be nice.