I need advice~
Over the pass couple of months i've been having trouble finding a job. Every where I've been wanting to work, turned me down or blew smoke up my ass making me BELIEVE i have the job, and then gives it to someone else.
I have realized that the only place I could probably get a job is in a salon.
I'm starting to understand what my mom means when she say's they aren't picking me because of my size xD. I'm really fucking tiny. I know that sounds kinda weird but realistically... I think that IS the issue. I'm 90 pounds and 4"10 .... they probably think i'm this weak little kid, who can't do the job right. And it frustrates the hell out of me. Like the make up jobs for Estee Lauder and Chanel, I even have my fucking cosmetology license, that should have given me and upper hand. But it didn't help me at all.
Now, most of you may know that I really don't have a huge passion for hair. I took cosmetology strictly for the make up but I grew to like hair and people say I'm good at it even though I hate it. And for the past couple of days I've been thinking of just working in a salon, I really REALLY need the money because everything is just so fucking crazy lately.
But to be honest, its not that I hate hair.... its because i have no confidence in doing other people's hair. I get so fucking nervous just THINKING about doing someone's hair. In school it was okay because I had my friends around me (and they were elderly people) but working in a salon is totally different than working in your school salon.
So that brings me to this,
Would it seem... stupid if I asked my mom to let me practice on friends and family for a couple of months to build up my confidence levels? Or does that just seem like an excuse to ... not work in a salon?
My mom has been pushing me to work in a salon for MONTHS, ever since i graduated and I was never able to tell her how I truly felt about doing hair. So do you think she would think that's just an excuse for me?