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Aaaahhhhh
Why do I do it to myself?
I was going to go shopping with my mom and brother and I said I'd drive.
Everytime I drive with my mother in the car I regret it.
She bitches about my driving non-stop.
If I'm not speeding (sometimes as little as 5mph over) I'm following too close. Or there is always the fact I take corners too fast (I know I do but I don't want to hear it from her!). There is also the fact that I don't brake soon enough.
Well I think she brakes too soon!
Aaaahhhhh
So I stopped to get gas then I drove back home and said I didn't feel like shopping.
The real reason being she put me in a bad mood and I don't want to be around her, for my sake and hers.
So now I am dressed with nothing to do.
Damn-it there was no use to getting dressed this early in the day.
I don't like feeling like this.
I want to be out and about in the world.
Today I don't feel like being alone.
And I don't feel like calling anybody.
I don't like feeling like this.
Lately I have been able to feel the negative energy between my mother and I. It comes and it goes. But it is building, eventually the balance we have will explode, and we will fix it and everything will be alright again.
But this process takes too long.
Ashlee
Why do I do it to myself?
I was going to go shopping with my mom and brother and I said I'd drive.
Everytime I drive with my mother in the car I regret it.
She bitches about my driving non-stop.
If I'm not speeding (sometimes as little as 5mph over) I'm following too close. Or there is always the fact I take corners too fast (I know I do but I don't want to hear it from her!). There is also the fact that I don't brake soon enough.
Well I think she brakes too soon!
Aaaahhhhh
So I stopped to get gas then I drove back home and said I didn't feel like shopping.
The real reason being she put me in a bad mood and I don't want to be around her, for my sake and hers.
So now I am dressed with nothing to do.
Damn-it there was no use to getting dressed this early in the day.
I don't like feeling like this.
I want to be out and about in the world.
Today I don't feel like being alone.
And I don't feel like calling anybody.
I don't like feeling like this.
Lately I have been able to feel the negative energy between my mother and I. It comes and it goes. But it is building, eventually the balance we have will explode, and we will fix it and everything will be alright again.
But this process takes too long.
Ashlee