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I won't cry anymore. I promise.
Today was just so off.
I woke up around 7:30am after accepting that Daniel wasn't there to kiss me awake and tell me how beautiful I look, when I really look bad with bad morning breath.
Daddy took me to school.
I was pacing back and forth looking for him, he wasn't there.
Homeroom couldn't have gone slower.
First period was long as ever. We had alot of work to do *sigh*
Then after first I saw him.
I said hey and smiled and talked to him a bit.
Then I went back to class. I hate this part. I can't do internship until this whole TB thing is settled.
Then after second I talked to Melanie and she had wrote these pretty good poems.
In third we did some worksheet. But I wrote Melanie a two page letter. I started crying.
Then I went to lunch and sat down in the lobby with Mel.
She told me that Daniel loves me a whole lot and says i'm beautiful and was mad at the letter I wrote. *I wrote a letter in first period about how I felt.*
I went in and ate with my boo. You know who you are.
Then at break I waited for Daniel the whole time and he never came. When the minute bell rang I saw him and asked him to call me tonight, I needed to talk to him.
I suffered through fourth period.
Then rode the bus home. Richard held me and we talked about school since I haven't rode the bus in like ever!!!!!
I missed him and Vance and Niki. The coolest freshmen you will ever meet in your life.
Stumbled home after talking to the drunk neighbor. The school called my mommy and told her I have missed school or w/e. And so if I skip again, I get grounded for 6 months. No b/f. In less than 6 months I get my license, so that is a long time.
I get in the truck about to go to town and Daniel comes driving down to my driveway.
I get out and go back inside with him.
OMFLIPPINGOSH!!!
He gave me my braclet and Snow Patrol C.D.
Then he sat down and he said I had to talk to you in person.
He's getting a second chance with school and with his parents.
He can't work except on weekends.
He was hoping that we could work it out.
I started crying.
He dosen't know how hard today was.
After last night, I was ready to just die.
And today I thought I was going to.
If I had known that yesterday was going to be the last time you would wake me up, then I would have slept forever instead.
He did the sweetest thing.
When I had first asked him out, it was on a little piece of paper saying Do you have a g/f, if not will you go out with me?
and that's when we started going out. Well he gave me a little piece of paper and kissed me goodbye and said he will call tonight. I opened it up after he left and it said "Do you have a boyfriend If not will you go out with me" he evened dotted the i's with hearts like I do. I smiled big and whispered "yes". I can't wait till he calls so I can tell him.
You write such pretty words, but lifes no storybook!
A poem for my boo
She was your friend in nineth grade
Told you her love would never fade.
She was your closest companion at night
Told you never to give up without a fight.
I told you I loved you many times
Thinking like this must be a reason for rhymes.
I told you I would be there for you always
Thinking that you were a high goddess raised.
We both fell down at the same pace
My hearts beating and you can't stop this race.
We both need to look past our insecurity
My love for you is for all eternity.
*I love you Monika. B/F/F!!!
I didn't get to go to church tonight since I have this really bad cold and I don't want anyone else to get it.
I'm so sorry though.
I'm off now. Toodles and God bless ya always.