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*It's nothing so simple*
There goes my heart again.
I am now empty.
He took it from me w/o me knowing it.
Sure I may have gave it to him, but he took it.
I could write him a note telling him how much I love him and how he's the greatest thing ever. But then again, my heart will not let me do such a crazy thing.
He must not ever know this.
I must be creative in how to die.
I must be lonely in all my lies.
I must be what the grave fits.
I must be heavy with a deadly kiss.
I must be.
Monday- I went to school. Then to *'s house and we hung out. We went to little caesars and got some pizza and then I drove Daniel home. I got pulled over. I screamed "Oh No!!!" when the sirens came on. And then I pull over and he passes me. I was so mad and happy!. lol.
Tuesday- Went to school. Went to Daniels house till 6:30pm. Then to home. Me and Daniel talked all night.
Wedsday- I went to school. I have 2 b's and a c. :(. I wanted strait a's. Me and Daniel got in a big fight. At break he goes I'm leaving and I walk away crying. I cried when I got home. I cried myself to sleep. I cried. I wake up at 11pm after he's called twice and left a message online. I call him and we talk. He says he needs his space. He is working now and his parents are letting him drive again. But he wants to go home and do his homework and go to work, then go home. That leaves no time for me until the weekends and church. I cried. I am so stupid. I let him become my life. I did everything with him, always with him. Now I have to give all that up for a weekend. And I work on weekends. So basically can't see him at all, unless at school, which isin't enough. I can make it with him. But I still have to think about this.
It hurts that he said "If you truely love me, you would have understood." That broke my heart. I told him that nobody knows their true love, and that the person that they love will never know how much someone loves them. I want to stay with him. He's too good. And he was trying his best to help me understand, even though I already do. He thinks that it would be good for me too. But the thing is, I just come home and stay online all day. That's all I will be doing now.
Whatever.
Got to wait till the morning sun rises and I see him.
I miss him a whole lot.
I slept in his shirt and folded his other shirt and held onto it for life.
h Someone please call a surgean to crack my ribs and repair this broken heart.
I'll never let this go. I promise you that much.
I'm a slow motion accident
Your name here
It dosen't matter what I put there because I know i'm not me without you. *me.
I should go to bed. It's 2:30a.m. now and my tummy hurts and my whole body is gone.
I'm going to bed right now!