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I had a messed up, depressed inside day. I also made the biggest mistake of my life today to.
Let's see I went to bed around 2am or so and I dreamed about him.
We were friends and it took place at the Y, also the first place we met.
We kissed and everything was good.
Then I woke up. Letting him go again, waiting till I could close my eyes and remeber all the things I let go.
I woke up and saw that Daniel had called me. So I called him and he came over and then me and my mom left to cash my check and so I left him and my dad alone.
I came back home and then me and Daniel went to his house.
We just layed in his bed and watched Tenacious D part two.
Then he went and ate dinner. I couldn't eat b/c I didn't want to and I didn't want to talk to his parents. I wanted to be isolated in a far away place where memories don't exist and love isin't pain.
Then he came back upstairs and we just talked and yeah.
He was really trying to find out what was wrong with me. I couldn't tell him. I was thinking about last night over and over. I finally made up my mind and told him that I had something to give him when I got home.
So he took me home and I gave him his things.
I made this thing to prove my love to him. I just hope this is as real as it feels.
I wrote on this rock of mine "I love you" and wrote an a piece of paper "As this rock is true to the earth, i'm true to you"
and also gave him that cute picture of me.
I told him not to look at it till he got to Fletchers house. I hope he listened.
I feel so full, yet so empty.
Anyways. I'm going to go to sleep or something like that.
So night, God bless and Toodles