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Why is it when i'm about to get over you, you have to come back into my life?
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I hate him so much. I hate myself even more for picking up the phone.
So when I got the house cleaned up and the room ready to sleep in. I sit online for a bit and then at 11pm the phone rings and I pick it up and it's Matt Good. *screams* I'm so sick of him. It's been a month and he calls me up telling me he misses me and his life is crap w/o me. So we talk for like an hour or so. At first I was really upset and then I just talked to him trying to get him not to kill himself. And he's mad at me cause I have a boyfriend. He really thought I was going to wait around for him forever. Well he was very wrong. I was over him the day we broke up. I didn't deserve the crap he put me through. I was better than that. He was just a lesson I had to learn.
But anyways. When we got off the phone it was around 12:30am. And I just had a weird mood about me and it stayed with me all night and all day.
I didn't dream... I wish I had... of him.
But I woke up and got ready and stood outside for 20 minutes waiting for the bus. It was late, and I was frozen.
Then I ate breakfest.
Then hr.
Then third period. We watched October Sky and a little bit of Dodgeball. That was freaky. Cause wed. night I was trying to figure out the name of the movie October Sky and Matt told me it was October Sky and then like 4 days later we watch it out of nowhere. It was like AHHH FREAKY!
That stupid dork had the nerve to give us 5 worksheets. HAHA I threw them away.
Then we had a little break in which I saw Daniel for like .3 seconds. His smile helped me through that exam.
Second period exam was so EASY!!! We got presents from our teacher. I got booby tassles... haha. They were a pair of ball ornaments and I swear they look like booby tassles. I laughed so hard at that.
I was really tired so I read some embarrsing moments other people had.
Then they finally let us out.
Me and Daniel went to my house after waiting in the school parking lot for like EVER!
So we came here and I cleaned up a little cause the dog got out and tore the house all to hades.....like major. It was so embarsing cause one of my thongs was in the middle of the living room floor and it was like there... I don't think Daniel saw though. TG.... lol....haha. Ok. So we sat down and talked about a bunch of stuff for like an hour and half. It was great. But we didn't hold hands or anything. But when we do, it will be great. Cause this is just so great. Thank you God for this great gift.
Then he left around 5pm cause he was tired....
Then I cleaned some more. Made some food and plumped my fat ass down and watched Sabrina the Teenage Witch and smoked me a cig.
My mommy called me and told me that Daddy was doing good. He's stable, but he's still in ICU and on the breathing thingie.
Then I got online to update this thing.. now i'm going to go and watch 40 days and 40 nights since I missed it last night.
But before I go....
Your making a scene of beautiful.
Yeah your beautiful, so what?
If I wake up, I know your the first thing i'll think of.
But I stay awake beacause your too good to give up.
Novacaine couldn't make you go away.
Nothing really can, unless you want it to.
Your smile and words and voice and lips and just everything about you makes me want to melt into liquid form so you can drink me up and have me always instead of just now.
You can't go wrong.