Since Last Time On "Saudy's Life"
Well, what is there to say. oh yeah. okay so i was sort of talking to this boy named justin, but he's 17 and i'm gonna be 21, so yeah that's like rape. i never did anything with him though cuz i felt too weirded out. so we just decided to be friends and leave it just like that. in other news i do have this little cruch on this boy here. i think he is the cutiest thing i have ever seen. he's in my electrical wiring class and he's my personal trainer. yeah know, he works me out and kills me everytime. i think i ws just attracted to him until i caught myself say his name in my sleep. not just his first name but last too. i need help because i don't want to feel that way, all i wante dto do is to come in here do what i need to do and get the fuck out, right, wrong. like usual. why is is that when a girl or me, tries to get their life together a boy will all of a sudden appear. he has the most cutiest blue eyes. when he smiles, he looks like a little devil; that's when i know he's up to no good, or he has already done it. i like hanging out with him, but i don't think he feels the same way. my friend, joannie, thinks he does, because he's always ragging on me. i asked him one time, 'why are you always playing tricks or doing stupid stuff to me?' he said, 'cuz it's fun' i asked him 'do you do this to every body?' he said 'no just you' i asked 'why?' he said 'cuz your special' oh how much i wish that that was true cuz for some reason i can't get him out of my mind. the worst part is is that justin and him are friends. i don't want to hurt justin, but at the same token i don't want this feeling that i have for this guy go away. i haven't really felt like this in a long time. after akil and all. i just had flings here and there to pass my time. none of those guys were special to me. none of those guys were akil. i have to stop hanging onto the past and with this new boy i think i can do that, but i'm not sure. cuz i also have this thing for another boy. he's totally different from the first, but has his own magic to win me over too. sorry to say none of them know and i'm not going to tell them. hah, life really does suck. or is it: it sux to be here, it sux to be there, too, but most of all it would suck to be you.
anyways, class has been going really well, considering that i am in a class with all boys. and let me just say that they are all stupid and they need to see a shrink. and they can never admit when they're wrong, but i just keep my mouth shut, well most of the time. sometimes i can't help but tell them that they are stupid and that they need a doctor cuz i understand shit comes out of a persons ass, but when it comes out of a persons mouth now that's funny. but let's get back to the subject, i'm doing rather well in ew, cuz i keep on finishing my project ahead of time, that my teacher was saying that he wanted me out of his office for a few days. i keep going to his office and i always say, 'mr. jones, i'm done'. so i was given a longer, tougher, project, with piping and flurecent lights and motion censors and a whole bunch of other shit. but anyways g2g, real tired and just wanting to read my book and then go to sleep, i have long day of cleaning. oh just to put some more excitment to my journal entry, my teach wants to make me foreman of the class, which means i'll be supervising my classmates, which are dumb boys, except for him.
anyways, class has been going really well, considering that i am in a class with all boys. and let me just say that they are all stupid and they need to see a shrink. and they can never admit when they're wrong, but i just keep my mouth shut, well most of the time. sometimes i can't help but tell them that they are stupid and that they need a doctor cuz i understand shit comes out of a persons ass, but when it comes out of a persons mouth now that's funny. but let's get back to the subject, i'm doing rather well in ew, cuz i keep on finishing my project ahead of time, that my teacher was saying that he wanted me out of his office for a few days. i keep going to his office and i always say, 'mr. jones, i'm done'. so i was given a longer, tougher, project, with piping and flurecent lights and motion censors and a whole bunch of other shit. but anyways g2g, real tired and just wanting to read my book and then go to sleep, i have long day of cleaning. oh just to put some more excitment to my journal entry, my teach wants to make me foreman of the class, which means i'll be supervising my classmates, which are dumb boys, except for him.