To my muse
"i don't know, can u?"
"i don't know that's y i'm asking u?"
so u ever notice how guys don't ever understand what they r saying. they understand, but the literal sense that their words mean.
"Jael, u asked me if u can kiss me. can implies r u able to. the correct term would be may."
"So, may i kiss u?"
"y?"
"what do u mean y? i wanna kiss ur beatiful lips."
all i'm thinking is sure boy thinks that he has moves, to me there is no boy who has moves. i'm hard to get and i like that way. i don't play hard to get just to have fun i am hard to get for my protection. i have trust issues with guys i just meet. i've learned how tp protect myself and how to say what's on mind, to just be blunt. if i seem like a bitch because of it then so what, i'm on the line and i won't let anyone break me.
"so may i kiss u?"
"y?"
this went back and forth all night long with other conversations in between. i wanted to get to know him first and when i felt like deserved it then maybe i would kiss him. well, at the end of the night i ended up kissing him and i'm glad i did. his lips were soft as rose pettles. they were too small and they weren't to big, they were perfect. we talked about what was going to happen with us.
"so smv do u have a boyfriend where u live?"
"no i don't?"
"good"
there was no point of me asking him cuz we were in his neighborhood and at his house with his fam
"are u going to look for a bf when u go home?"
"y?" i asked
"cuz i don't want u to? i was hoping that u would be my girl, will u?"
"yes i will be ur gf, and no i'm going to look for someone when i go home?"
"good"
"and u? r u goin 2 look 4 some dumb broad?"
"no, i'm not looking at no one else and i'm not going to."
"good, we're agreed"
we couldn't get enough of eachother after that. we just talked all of the time, it was sweet and great and like heaven, being young and free is the best, and i found what i was missing. well the ending came or maybe just the begining, i don't know. he had to leave for baseball camp on a monday morning. i woke up bright and early to see him leave. he came over to my friends house, where i was staying. i gave him my favoriate ring and a kiss. he said that he was going to miss me and that he card for me. i said the same, and he went in a car with his father. i later wrote him a letter and sent him a picture cuz one of his uncle's were going to see him and he wanted a picture of me.
i miss him a lot still and i hope that he's waiting for me like i'm waiting for him, i care about him a lot and i can't wait till i see him again.
also, before i left his mother started talking to me out of the blue about what he was doing and how much he missed him. i talked to her for a little while about jael. see, jael and i were together, but sort of in secret. my rents nor any adult was supposed to know. my cousins and his cousins knew, but somehow i knew that she knew after that conversation. her nieces and nephews, my friends, thought she knew too after i told them what happened. i can't wait to go back and see everybody again, plus my godchild that is on the way.
"i don't know that's y i'm asking u?"
so u ever notice how guys don't ever understand what they r saying. they understand, but the literal sense that their words mean.
"Jael, u asked me if u can kiss me. can implies r u able to. the correct term would be may."
"So, may i kiss u?"
"y?"
"what do u mean y? i wanna kiss ur beatiful lips."
all i'm thinking is sure boy thinks that he has moves, to me there is no boy who has moves. i'm hard to get and i like that way. i don't play hard to get just to have fun i am hard to get for my protection. i have trust issues with guys i just meet. i've learned how tp protect myself and how to say what's on mind, to just be blunt. if i seem like a bitch because of it then so what, i'm on the line and i won't let anyone break me.
"so may i kiss u?"
"y?"
this went back and forth all night long with other conversations in between. i wanted to get to know him first and when i felt like deserved it then maybe i would kiss him. well, at the end of the night i ended up kissing him and i'm glad i did. his lips were soft as rose pettles. they were too small and they weren't to big, they were perfect. we talked about what was going to happen with us.
"so smv do u have a boyfriend where u live?"
"no i don't?"
"good"
there was no point of me asking him cuz we were in his neighborhood and at his house with his fam
"are u going to look for a bf when u go home?"
"y?" i asked
"cuz i don't want u to? i was hoping that u would be my girl, will u?"
"yes i will be ur gf, and no i'm going to look for someone when i go home?"
"good"
"and u? r u goin 2 look 4 some dumb broad?"
"no, i'm not looking at no one else and i'm not going to."
"good, we're agreed"
we couldn't get enough of eachother after that. we just talked all of the time, it was sweet and great and like heaven, being young and free is the best, and i found what i was missing. well the ending came or maybe just the begining, i don't know. he had to leave for baseball camp on a monday morning. i woke up bright and early to see him leave. he came over to my friends house, where i was staying. i gave him my favoriate ring and a kiss. he said that he was going to miss me and that he card for me. i said the same, and he went in a car with his father. i later wrote him a letter and sent him a picture cuz one of his uncle's were going to see him and he wanted a picture of me.
i miss him a lot still and i hope that he's waiting for me like i'm waiting for him, i care about him a lot and i can't wait till i see him again.
also, before i left his mother started talking to me out of the blue about what he was doing and how much he missed him. i talked to her for a little while about jael. see, jael and i were together, but sort of in secret. my rents nor any adult was supposed to know. my cousins and his cousins knew, but somehow i knew that she knew after that conversation. her nieces and nephews, my friends, thought she knew too after i told them what happened. i can't wait to go back and see everybody again, plus my godchild that is on the way.