after forever of not writing
ok well, i am updating for the first time in a very very long time. today, me and alisha broke up after four months and ten days. for me, this was a pretty long relationship, and for the most part very meaningful. I did not feel in any way that I wasted one second of these four months. But in the past, lets say 10 days, things went from amazing to crappy. nowhere in between. amazing to crappy. I tried very hard to be a good boyfriend to keep our relationship together, in vain. Alisha Marie See, you will always hold a a very special place in my heart. I want to thank you for teaching me about life and love, and about friendship. I am positive that this happenned for the best, and under our circumstances, it is the only thing that we could have done. For everybody who reads this, and for everybody who knows anything about me, I want you to stop thinking whatever you are thinking about me and relationships. People may think that I can never hold a girlfriend, or that I date girls for the wrong reasons, or that whatever. whatever you guys think about me, I want to tell you that you are wrong. If you still want to think that, you are ignorant, you do not know me, and I do not want you to ever read any of my journals again. Any kind of comment like that said to me, or anybody else, will hurt me, because the fact that you said it will get back to me. My heart is always in the right place. I dont try to have relationships that dont last. That was a statement which should have been left unsaid, but it is the truth. I hope that in the future I can find someone who can reciprocate what I feel for them. That is essentially what a relationship is; a couple who's time spent together is based on support and caring. Everyone, we are in high school, we shouldnt put so much stress on this subject, even thought inevitably, I am going to, and so are you. For now I will focus my life on academics, and swimming. I am on swim team for anyone who doesnt know and our record is 2-4 right now. I have a swuim meet tomorrow night against dunnellon at jervey gant(6:30pm). Anyways I am going to get to bed now because I have jazz rehearsal at 6:20 in the morning. Last but not least, I want to thank my very good friends for always being there for me when I've needed them for counseling in everything; Sydne, Jess, Adam, Nathan, and John. My sister just moved back to Ocala tonight, as a surprise. I am so happy to have them back. I've missed her and my neices. good night world.