Jan 20, 2006 23:11
OK, lets start somewhere... how about tonight... lets see ive just been hanging around with drunk students as the only mainly sober person and one it shocks me to see what the hell is going on and second i wish i could be like them, but with my mental state and physical nuerological condition ive decided to remain partially sober most of the time... actually im sober all of the time except now and then... these are people that could be easily pushed into compromising positions (laugh track) and it frieghtens me... but enough of that... im down to my last pack of smokes and ive decided to at least go one full week without a single puff of a cigarette (for those new to my life i dont smoke POT, i have and never want to again... its too personally addicting to me and its just a waste of money) once this pack is gone and its beyond half-way through... i mean there wasnt any real problems when i came home after my little mental crisis, i didnt go through any physical withdrawls and it actually felt nice not to continuely cough up phlegm... anyways beside all of this and this only being friday (the first day of this alcoholic rampage) my classes are going fine and i have only missed one so far and hope not to miss any others... i wont be able to remain friends with any of these people that are now my "friends" because i cant stand to see them go into drugs no matter how tame they seem to be... i want to remain in a structured yet surrealistic enviroment, its going to take some work and i need to find some psychological help in the mean time... ill post something latter... i need to go smoke.. just kidding... im going to go and watch a movie... two movies i strongly suggest are "The Phantom of Liberty" -Luis Bunuel and "400 Blows" -Traffaut... later people...