Final Resolution
no matter how hard i try i will never be able to overcome the assumption that in gay terms that i am a bear... i guess thats how it goes in these matters and there is probably nothing i can do to change that as long as i am myself... im thinkin gabout putting out a personal ad, just paper sheets here and there being extremely blunt lookin gfor a date and something else and it may not be sexual for all i care... ahhhhh this is driving me insane and i cant get my min dove rthe fact that nothing is there there is nothing here for me in collins in IUB in Indiana... the scene for fags is limited to fairly princesses and macho beaters... and where do i fit in mayber in the farthest reaches of the closet... stuck all the way in the back gasping for air... damn me... damn the community here, there, and everywhere...FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!