Ya know...
There has been a whole lot going on lately regarding pretty much every part of my life.
I met a girl who pretty much tore through my life in a matter of a few weeks only to up and move to Chicago. Wasted time? I think not. I feel better about myself than I have in a long time. Weird as I am, she accepted every part of me...even when I was too high and couldn't pay attention to her...even when I locked myself in my room because I had too much anxiety to go out. Needless to say, I'll be making a trip to Chicago in the near future.
My band has been playing out as a full group once again and we're finally starting to write some new material. I'm sick of having to work in new drummers and I really hope this is the last time we'll have to do it. Chris seems to be fitting in pretty well so far, though he is a bit sloppy at times and occasionally loses count of our parts. Judging by how much better he's gotten over the first couple weeks, I'm assuming he'll continue and everything will work out just fine. In conclusion, check our MySpace and come out to a show sometime. http://www.myspace.com/ibecamethesky
I decided, once again, to quit getting high for a while. This time it's not for my lung's sake, but my mind's. For a couple months now I've been locked up inside, staying up all night and falling into my thoughts. I'm 90% sure this is how most people go completely insane. I've lost the motivation to do most anything that doesn't involve sitting around accomplishing nothing. I'm anxiety ridden, depressed, hopeless, and tired. I have to take control now before I can never come back.
To go along with this, I can finally feel spring coming (regardless of the storm that's supposed to hit tonight). I can see it in the sun and it makes me happy. It makes me ache to be outside and play some disc golf with my friends. So why not clear up my mind so I can enjoy spring to the fullest? Why wait for warmth to cure me when I can anticipate it and be ready?
Ahh...a breath of fresh air
Noah