Starting of the spinal chronicles.
Well I guess. I should post this to everyone. I kind of want to share for those that don't know this I suffer from Degenerative Disk Disease. This basically means that some of the disks in my spine are eroding at a faster rate than others. I have already had one spinal surgery about 3 years to the day. This was to remove one of the herniated disk fragments in my spine. I am sure by now all my Facebook friends from live journal are all tired of hearing me lament about my stupid spine or that I am in pain. I have been suffering with the almost unbearable pain imaginable. I had my MRI and I went to see my Neurosurgeon. I have another herniated disk in my spine and that the fragments are once again pressing on vital nerves that help control my right leg function. I will be going under the knife again soon (I say soon because The inflammation is so severe that I have to take a bunch of meds to bring down the inflammation to make it operable). Personally I am totally depressed about this. Partly because of the extreme pain I am in and the other part that surgery is the only option. And now on to the scary part of all this for me, all the meds the Neurosurgeon has me taking oral morphine for the pain, an anti-depressant and yes an evil steroid. I know I hate steroids. They make me fat. I have no options at this point in time to alleviate the irritation to the spinal nerve but to take the Steroid. They wanted to give me the dreaded cortisone shot right then and there on the spot. I’d rather not.
Inside I am sad. And I am really saying super sad. And I am not very hungry and can barely eat to begin with. Now all I want to do is sleep till the surgery. But I can't let that rule me it doesn't work that way for me. I have to work so I can take the 2 weeks off to heal up and feel better. This means that in September I will be out almost 2 weeks. It’s good though because I haven't taken any sick leave this year so. This means that I have all this off paid.
OK enough of this for now.
I want my Lolita Skirts and A new blouse and a Jumper. That's what I want and for my back to be pain free. I also want to get my perfect outfit together. And that’s going to be Tough. More later..
I am however trying to remain optimistic.