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So I leave for florida tomorrow. Which is going to be a complete waste of time.
okay so first, I was exctied like omgahholyshitkathryntime!!!
AND MAN, KATHRYN; I'VE MISSED YOU SO MUCH & LAST SUMMER WAS FKN BOMB.
but shit, my mom has to go back to work on monday so I come home sunday.
and kat get's there on like.. friday. and saturday is a funeral so that's like..One full day??!?!
I have the option of staying for like another week with them. and fly home all alone.
But, my friends, holy shit. I have a total of 15 days once I get home with them.
seriously. 15 fucking days. and I won't see them for another 5ish months.
and adrian just got back. and I want/need to see him ALOT. but crap.
what the hell am I supposed to do? I don't even want to go to florida and go to the beach one time
and talk to old people and FINALLY have kat come and then be like oh crap I have to go to a funeral and be sad.
WHAT DO I DO?? WHY CAN'T I STAYYYY??
I hate my dad so much. he wrote in a journal at his work that I found today;
"Corey poisoned bailey." and I was like. holyshit!
"He turned her against me. she used to not pick sides but after they started talking she says she hates me and fights with me. she told me that I'm not her 'dad' and she doesn't want to talk to me. it's all because of him"
so I crossed it out and wrote LIESSSSSS beside it because, man the nerve of that guy to lie to fucking himself about what really happened FKDHSKJDFLSDHFJKSHDJFHDJSKHJKDSHFJKHSDJ.
seriously I just want to send him in a box to cuba as a cuban citizen so he can't get home and I don't have to move and then his health insurance will pay us and we can buy that house down the street from jonny.
this was long and pointless but I hate moving and I hate decisions and I miss people even though I've seen them.
my thoughts are so complicated and fucked up and I hope I just sleep through the next 72 hours.