as you wish
okay, so this past year, i have relied on mostly song lyrics and whatnot to post in a livejournal, or show my friends, just so they could understand what i was going through. i never thought i could really say things the right away, or make people understand me, so i used the words of others. like, when my dad died, or some random girl "dissed" me or i got rejected, or my mom ragged on me, or my friends ditched me, i could always rely on the format to understand me, and to put my feelings and emotions to music and lyrics far more impressive than anything i could say.
well, i'm a little confused, because the format doesn't really have any songs that fit what i'm feeling right now, so i'm asking everyone who reads this for help in finding me a song i can post to make everyone understand what i'm going through. okay, so what song is about finding that one person who justifies the previous twenty years of your life, and how much you appreciate that, and how you've told everyone all kinds of shit about love previous, and now you just can shut up because this is different...and who needs to say anything because you just KNOW! and it also needs to say something about you figuring out that your pa really loved your ma by the way he told her everything would be okay, and that he'd take care of everything, and that you yourself wanted to do that someday....and then you find that person who you want to take care of like that...and it's just oh man! and then it has to say something about you failing at life even though you tried being all profound and stuff, and then realizing that you aren't really a victim of circumstance, and that you have to go out and change stuff, and then being really depressed about that decision even though its the right one, but then a week later finding the one thing that proved it all true. and also, it's gotta say something about all of your friends knowing ahead of time that it was GONNA BE AWESOME! and really it should say something profound about this being the first time you believe those crazy three words, and don't even mind the word "too" coming after it, and actually believing that it isn't said just because its tradition, or polite, but for the first time in the history of the world, it's true!!! and koalas and zombies and....goldfish. and it should also say something about it not being too bad feeling married at all, seeing as no one's pushing for a ring, a ball in chain, a shared house, kids, and a bunch of bullshit, but it being all about the partnership. yea! it should say something about my sweetheart being my partner and how good she is at it. and yea....all of that, plus it should rhyme, and be pretty clever. and it should be the first track on a concept album of infinite length. for sure.
whatever....i'm going to bed.
well, i'm a little confused, because the format doesn't really have any songs that fit what i'm feeling right now, so i'm asking everyone who reads this for help in finding me a song i can post to make everyone understand what i'm going through. okay, so what song is about finding that one person who justifies the previous twenty years of your life, and how much you appreciate that, and how you've told everyone all kinds of shit about love previous, and now you just can shut up because this is different...and who needs to say anything because you just KNOW! and it also needs to say something about you figuring out that your pa really loved your ma by the way he told her everything would be okay, and that he'd take care of everything, and that you yourself wanted to do that someday....and then you find that person who you want to take care of like that...and it's just oh man! and then it has to say something about you failing at life even though you tried being all profound and stuff, and then realizing that you aren't really a victim of circumstance, and that you have to go out and change stuff, and then being really depressed about that decision even though its the right one, but then a week later finding the one thing that proved it all true. and also, it's gotta say something about all of your friends knowing ahead of time that it was GONNA BE AWESOME! and really it should say something profound about this being the first time you believe those crazy three words, and don't even mind the word "too" coming after it, and actually believing that it isn't said just because its tradition, or polite, but for the first time in the history of the world, it's true!!! and koalas and zombies and....goldfish. and it should also say something about it not being too bad feeling married at all, seeing as no one's pushing for a ring, a ball in chain, a shared house, kids, and a bunch of bullshit, but it being all about the partnership. yea! it should say something about my sweetheart being my partner and how good she is at it. and yea....all of that, plus it should rhyme, and be pretty clever. and it should be the first track on a concept album of infinite length. for sure.
whatever....i'm going to bed.