im afraid things have taken a turn for the worse
my god. how life has changed. i always knew this was possible but, just always hoped it wouldnt happen. time can change EVERYTHING and anything. dont ever understimate that
i am depressed. i am battling severe episodes of depression everyday and i dont have too many real friends to count on, nor medicare to diagnose some probably needed anti-depressant drugs to help me. i am truely near alone on this. ive never hurt as much as i have been hurting. i am in a dark dark dark tunnel. i see a light but its so distant, everyday i contemplate if its worth chasing. i feel so worthless after all she's said to me. after 4 years, like the past 4 years were a wasted effort. i gave my all, and someone else came and "treated her better than" i ever did. god. i will be messed up for years.
i know a lot to do with this suffering is i have not much else, its not just her
just everything came crashing down at the same time...everything.
i need to pick up whats left of me and try to carry on. i dont know if i'll ever love again, i hope i do. i want to love. i want to be loved.
i hope i make it through to the light, all i can do is try
i am depressed. i am battling severe episodes of depression everyday and i dont have too many real friends to count on, nor medicare to diagnose some probably needed anti-depressant drugs to help me. i am truely near alone on this. ive never hurt as much as i have been hurting. i am in a dark dark dark tunnel. i see a light but its so distant, everyday i contemplate if its worth chasing. i feel so worthless after all she's said to me. after 4 years, like the past 4 years were a wasted effort. i gave my all, and someone else came and "treated her better than" i ever did. god. i will be messed up for years.
i know a lot to do with this suffering is i have not much else, its not just her
just everything came crashing down at the same time...everything.
i need to pick up whats left of me and try to carry on. i dont know if i'll ever love again, i hope i do. i want to love. i want to be loved.
i hope i make it through to the light, all i can do is try