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Well, I couldnt go to sleep. When I tried, I sersiouly thought I was being visited by Aliens. One minute I am listening to muisc with my eyes wide open, and I blink...and see all these bright lights, then open my eyes, and I am in complete damn darkness. I dont know whats up with that. I remember it use to happen alot when I was a child. Way to many damn UFO documentaries. Tomorrow I work from 3pm-12am. How that happened I do not know. I need to go to sleep...or I will end up sleeping in church (like usual :/). I really wish we went to a later service. I dont like waking up early. (I fucking hate complaining, I am such a hypocrite, but so are you, so we all lose.) Monday, I get my very own car. So thats kinda exciting. I wont fully be excited until I get it, and realize its mine. Mind Gym has been keeping me great company. Its such a great book. Beowulf must be finished then I start on Sword in the Stone. Too many books, very little time (this is complete bull shit btw, i got too much time). Been working out a heck of alot more. I lost focus for a quick minute, but I think I am back on track. Been doing my work outs using Tabata. It makes me want to puke, but makes me feel good at the same time. My body is so blank at the moment. *gets out brush and paint* If you didnt get it, that means I am going to start scultping, using none other then my own body. Its really time to see what my body really can do. I have been put through alot of physical battles before, but I find everytime I do a push up or sit up, when I feel like I cant do another, I always feel uber good. Struggling (but doing it right) always feels good, especailly if you win. Man I am rambling, but I got so, much to say. ( No I dont, but I like rambaling) I have been studying people, and watching how people put themselves in holes. No one is positive these days. No ones is really worried about themsleves these days, and if they are worried about themselves, its all in the wrong way. Everyone is either worried about what someone else is doing, or worried about how bad things are for them, or how they cant do something and say it before they even. I want to restart this whole entry over. I think I will!