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Usually, when you hear that someone's getting married, you jump for joy and elation and all that. But is it bad to do it half-heartedly? I don't know about you people, but I find it hard to let it finally sink in that the man you had loved is marrying someone else. I had to fight with myself a lot and I've concluded. I'm happy for Ewan. I'm happy for Gale. I'm happy that they've found each other and I hope their happiness never ends. *shrugs* There's nothing else you can say..*Smiles* It's going to be a nice wedding or whatever, joining ceremony, union..I don't know what to refer to it as..Whatever it's going to be, it's going to be nice.
But my only thing is, Ewan wants me to be there, but Gale doesn't. And Ewan and Gale don't want Jason to be there..I mean, I know that they don't have the greatest friendship, but still..*shrugs* I want to go and I want to take Jason with me. I want to be all happy and blissful while I'm there too! *pouts and snickers*
Speaking of Jason, that man is just perfect. I don't know what to say about him except that he *shakes head* has some type of power over me. I just, *sigh* can't get enough of him. These past couple of days have been magical. I wake up, he feeds me, we fuck..we sleep, we fuck some more... Rinse, wash, repeat..But we do have those moments that we just enjoy each others presence..*smiles* Just lay there and sigh happily and do nothing. It's those moments I treasure..Like after he took me to the hospital, and we went to the park and stargazed. It was a soothing feeling..Feels like I'm on a high and there's no way in hell I could come down from it. *smiles* I love this feeling, and I hope I don't fuck up and lose it...*Sighs and plays with his fingers*
But my only thing is, Ewan wants me to be there, but Gale doesn't. And Ewan and Gale don't want Jason to be there..I mean, I know that they don't have the greatest friendship, but still..*shrugs* I want to go and I want to take Jason with me. I want to be all happy and blissful while I'm there too! *pouts and snickers*
Speaking of Jason, that man is just perfect. I don't know what to say about him except that he *shakes head* has some type of power over me. I just, *sigh* can't get enough of him. These past couple of days have been magical. I wake up, he feeds me, we fuck..we sleep, we fuck some more... Rinse, wash, repeat..But we do have those moments that we just enjoy each others presence..*smiles* Just lay there and sigh happily and do nothing. It's those moments I treasure..Like after he took me to the hospital, and we went to the park and stargazed. It was a soothing feeling..Feels like I'm on a high and there's no way in hell I could come down from it. *smiles* I love this feeling, and I hope I don't fuck up and lose it...*Sighs and plays with his fingers*