unFAIR
It’s been so long since I’ve cried. I had a lot of things to cry about before; I just didn’t have the TIME. Somehow, I felt that crying would just waste my time and energy and instead, I could be continuing on whatever I was doing.
In my Y!M status, I said… Did I even have the right to do that last night?
Yes, it was somewhat bothering me inside. I wanted to cry many times just because of the fair but there was this question that kept popping in my head… do I even have the right to cry? Why am I crying? I should stop now.
I couldn’t help it. I kept telling Krinkle after the closing and all those speeches… naiiyak na ko. But there goes again the question. I guess we share the same sentiments.
I feel like I’ve done so much for this fair but no one seemed to notice, only a handful. We’ve been planning for this fair for months and by we, I mean DI. We planned to get sponsors, have this amazing façade, 30K worth of decorations, and all that kind of stuff. What happened? We didn’t have the budget to push through with it as well as the will to go on with the fair. They told us to give them the list on how much we need. They told us they had 100K just for our center. By saying that, I knew they were lying. They were goddamn liars. I knew they didn’t have money. Oh come on, it’s the school we’re talking about. It’s just like politics here in the Philippines. Everyone’s CORRUPT.
I was assigned the head of DI (Digital Imaging) by Krinkle and Ms.Baldemor. I attended meetings, some because I was needed there to represent DI and some because I needed to talk to the lower batches which apparently are hard to talk to. I experienced a lot of problems… the panels, computers, computer tables, venue and all that stuff. In addition to that, I was part of the Programme Committee which was never acknowledged during the whole duration of the fair. I had to make tarp designs with Sev as well as make ID designs, ticket designs and invitations. It really annoyed the hell out of me. My GIFT-mates don’t know what I’ve been through just to even have something to present during the fair. We only had a goddamn 5K as our budget for the whole center. Oh come on, what can 5K do? It’s not even enough for the paint, printing and frames. Ms.Baldemor and Ms.Aves had to pay for all the expenses on the printing of artworks.
I hate the school. I hate the fair. I hate it that I wasn’t able to go to shows because I had to supervise DI and look after the MAC gadgets. I hate it that they didn’t even credit our logo. I hate it that they totally didn’t have any respect for our contest. The sponsors were there for God’s sake and he didn’t even allow us to announce the winners. They’ve announced it though but the lights weren’t even on. We had the permission of everyone, even his but he suddenly changed his mind. We had our awarding outside, even the picture taking. They even locked the gate. He said: “Lock the door! Lock the door! It’s a distraction…!” OH GOD IT ISN”T EVEN A DOOR! IT”S A GATE!
Ms.Baldemor and I got really pissed off because of that and because of the logo. There was no point whatsoever that they announced that it was drawn by Ms.baldemor and colored by Amanda. They’ve used it in tarps and powerpoints. I understand the tarps though since sev made it and I gave her a copy that was given to me by Amanda. Coming to think of it, I never heard anyone giving credit to Sev for making the tarps. Ms.B told us that it was okay not to credit her as long as it was credited to DI. But NO. It was NEVER credited. It was accidentally given to sir v because of the secretary.
I know I’ve got a whole lot of things to say but I just can’t seem to go on ranting how much I hate the fair. I just HATE it.
Today really is rest day. I’ve slept the whole day. When I wake up, I eat or watch a dvd. And then sleep again. By around 5, I took a bath and then went to the spa.
Oh, I just want to share what someone told me this morning. (I texted her last night saying thanks for being there all throughout the fair and I’m sorry I couldn’t call you personally since I just cried and all) I guess she was sleeping by that time so I had a reply from her this morning saying… “Ur most welcome… Why did you cry? Sinong gago ang nagpaiyak sayo?” I felt touched by what she said and I explained why. Do you want to know who it was? It’s someone who’s been close to me for the past few months. Many say that I’m the closest to her when it comes to our class. I always ask her for favors regarding pictures. I’m sure you know who she is.
I've watched Mr.& Mrs.Smith today yet again(since I never get tired of it) and I agree with what Brad Pitt said. "I guess in the end we just have to look back at the beginning."
I want to end this by saying Thank you to Krinkle, Xel, Ms.Baldemor, Ms.Aves, Ms.Rigor, 4th year GIFTmates especially Isada, Monique and Kyoy, Pam, and all those who’ve helped me during the whole time. Oh, and also to those who’ve dropped by our ‘booth’ and bought some straps. Thank you.
In my Y!M status, I said… Did I even have the right to do that last night?
Yes, it was somewhat bothering me inside. I wanted to cry many times just because of the fair but there was this question that kept popping in my head… do I even have the right to cry? Why am I crying? I should stop now.
I couldn’t help it. I kept telling Krinkle after the closing and all those speeches… naiiyak na ko. But there goes again the question. I guess we share the same sentiments.
I feel like I’ve done so much for this fair but no one seemed to notice, only a handful. We’ve been planning for this fair for months and by we, I mean DI. We planned to get sponsors, have this amazing façade, 30K worth of decorations, and all that kind of stuff. What happened? We didn’t have the budget to push through with it as well as the will to go on with the fair. They told us to give them the list on how much we need. They told us they had 100K just for our center. By saying that, I knew they were lying. They were goddamn liars. I knew they didn’t have money. Oh come on, it’s the school we’re talking about. It’s just like politics here in the Philippines. Everyone’s CORRUPT.
I was assigned the head of DI (Digital Imaging) by Krinkle and Ms.Baldemor. I attended meetings, some because I was needed there to represent DI and some because I needed to talk to the lower batches which apparently are hard to talk to. I experienced a lot of problems… the panels, computers, computer tables, venue and all that stuff. In addition to that, I was part of the Programme Committee which was never acknowledged during the whole duration of the fair. I had to make tarp designs with Sev as well as make ID designs, ticket designs and invitations. It really annoyed the hell out of me. My GIFT-mates don’t know what I’ve been through just to even have something to present during the fair. We only had a goddamn 5K as our budget for the whole center. Oh come on, what can 5K do? It’s not even enough for the paint, printing and frames. Ms.Baldemor and Ms.Aves had to pay for all the expenses on the printing of artworks.
I hate the school. I hate the fair. I hate it that I wasn’t able to go to shows because I had to supervise DI and look after the MAC gadgets. I hate it that they didn’t even credit our logo. I hate it that they totally didn’t have any respect for our contest. The sponsors were there for God’s sake and he didn’t even allow us to announce the winners. They’ve announced it though but the lights weren’t even on. We had the permission of everyone, even his but he suddenly changed his mind. We had our awarding outside, even the picture taking. They even locked the gate. He said: “Lock the door! Lock the door! It’s a distraction…!” OH GOD IT ISN”T EVEN A DOOR! IT”S A GATE!
Ms.Baldemor and I got really pissed off because of that and because of the logo. There was no point whatsoever that they announced that it was drawn by Ms.baldemor and colored by Amanda. They’ve used it in tarps and powerpoints. I understand the tarps though since sev made it and I gave her a copy that was given to me by Amanda. Coming to think of it, I never heard anyone giving credit to Sev for making the tarps. Ms.B told us that it was okay not to credit her as long as it was credited to DI. But NO. It was NEVER credited. It was accidentally given to sir v because of the secretary.
I know I’ve got a whole lot of things to say but I just can’t seem to go on ranting how much I hate the fair. I just HATE it.
Today really is rest day. I’ve slept the whole day. When I wake up, I eat or watch a dvd. And then sleep again. By around 5, I took a bath and then went to the spa.
Oh, I just want to share what someone told me this morning. (I texted her last night saying thanks for being there all throughout the fair and I’m sorry I couldn’t call you personally since I just cried and all) I guess she was sleeping by that time so I had a reply from her this morning saying… “Ur most welcome… Why did you cry? Sinong gago ang nagpaiyak sayo?” I felt touched by what she said and I explained why. Do you want to know who it was? It’s someone who’s been close to me for the past few months. Many say that I’m the closest to her when it comes to our class. I always ask her for favors regarding pictures. I’m sure you know who she is.
I've watched Mr.& Mrs.Smith today yet again(since I never get tired of it) and I agree with what Brad Pitt said. "I guess in the end we just have to look back at the beginning."
I want to end this by saying Thank you to Krinkle, Xel, Ms.Baldemor, Ms.Aves, Ms.Rigor, 4th year GIFTmates especially Isada, Monique and Kyoy, Pam, and all those who’ve helped me during the whole time. Oh, and also to those who’ve dropped by our ‘booth’ and bought some straps. Thank you.