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WELL ANOTHER NIGHT ALONE AS ALWAYS!! SITTING ALL BY MYSELF!! WHATS NEW HUH!!YOU KNOW SOME PEOPLE THINK THAT THE GRASS IS GREENIER ON THE OTHER SIDE WELL LET ME TELL YOU THAT ITS NOT!!I AM SO DEPRESSED!! REALLY DEPRESSED!! NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME ANYMORE!! I DONT HAVE ANYONE TO TALK TO! AND THE ONE PERSON WHO I TALK TO JUST SAYS I TOLD U SO!!AND THIS PERSON IS SO RIGHT AND I AM NOT AFFRAID TO AMIT THAT!I DONT REMEBER THE LAST TIME THAT I WENT OUT AND HAD A GOOD TIME!! IT HAS BEEN A WHILE!! I HAD TO MAKE HIM COME AND GET ME ON NEWYEARS OR I WOULD HAVE SPENT ANOTHER NIGHT ALONE!! THERE IS NO ONE HERE BUT ME AND ALL I EVER DO ANYMORE IS CRY!I AM SO TIRED OF CRYING ALL THE TIME! WHAT HAVE I DONE WITH MY LIFE? I HAVE JUST GONE AND FUCKED IT ALL UP!! U KNOW EVERYONE THINKS THAT I HAVE ALL OF THESE FRIENDS AND I REALLY DONT!! I DONT HAVE ONE FRIEND AT ALL!! THE ONE TRUE FRIEND THAT I DID HAVE DOESNT WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH ME!! YEAH ME MIGHT TALK TO ME EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE BUT I JUST CANT TAKE THIS ANYMORE I REALLY CANT!! I DONT KNOW HOW MUCH LONGER I CAN DO THIS! I FEEL LIKE I AM JUST LIVING A LIE!! ALL I EVER DO IS GO TO WORK AND COME HOME! WHEN I TRY TO GO AND DO THINGS IM NOT ALLOWED TO GO OVER THERE CAUSE THERE ARE TO MANY PEOPLE OVER THERE! U KNOW IF HE WAS A TRUE MAN WHO LOVED ME THEN HE WOULD BE LIKE WELL I'LL TALK TO U LATER ME AND TRINA ARE GOING TO GO AND DO SOMETHING. NOT HEY U CANT GO I WILL CALL U LATER, STAY THERE DONT GO ANYWHERE CAUSE I DONT KNOW WHAT TIME I AM COMING OVER!! AND THEN NOT EVEN CALL OR SHOW UP!! FUCK THAT SHIT I AM SO TIRED OF THIS SHIT!! HAHAHAHA THAT IS WHY I MADE THAT MOTHER FUCKER WALK HOME TODAY IN THE RAIN!! YEAH IF U CANT TREAT ME RIGHT AND U WANT TO BE A BITCH TO ME WELL HEY MOTHER FUCKER I CAN BE A BIGGER AND BETTER BITCH!! WELL I GUESS I DESERVE EVERY BIT OF THIS!! AND CAN SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME HOW THE HELL U HALF WAY LOVE SOMEONE! WHAT KIND OF SHIT IS THAT!! WHATEVER I AM SO DONE AND I HAVE TOLD HIM THAT! I WORK AND WORK AND WORK WHAT FOR NOTHING!! WELL I AM GOING TO GET ME A CAR IN LIKE 2 WEEKS AND NOW MAYBE I MIGHT BE ABLE TO DO SOMETHING THEN SIT IN THIS FUCKING HOUSE!! I JUST NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO ABOUT EVERYTHING THAT IS GOING ON IN MY LIFE!! BUT I DONT HAVE ANOYONE!!