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I've decided I'm in a bit of a depression. I just haven't felt myself in ... well if I'm truthful, months. I personally believe it leads back to last April and my visit to the Keys & DRC. My heart yearns for it and yet it beats for Dawson, Megan, & Lyllian. I can't imagine my life not in the Keys but I can't imagine my life so far from my children.
Because of this, this Christmas has not been very exciting for me. I didn't even put out my decorations on the lawn and I ALWAYS love doing that but this year I just didn't want to. I'm usually done shopping weeks before hand and I usually can't wait for Christmas morning. There is none of that this year. And it makes me sad to be this way. I talked to my Mom a bit about it tonight and she mentioned I had been this way for awhile now, how I wasn't even into decorating for Halloween and that's another holiday I love to decorate the house for. 8(
I need to fix this because this is not any way to live a life.
In other news we took the kids to Picture People ... and Aidan, who ALWAYS smiles for the camera, cried the entire time. Ironic, dontcha think? We did get one cute pose and we bought it. We're kind of glad he cried, that way we didn't end up spending tons of money. Then we took them to see Santa, we thought he would cry during that but he didn't! We got THE cutest pic, he is looking up at Santa & Santa is looking down at him. I love it! Maybe more then the Picture People one, heh.
Simba is sitting directly in front of me following the blinker as I type. I love these kittens but they have been driving me MAD the past few days. They are insane.
Because of this, this Christmas has not been very exciting for me. I didn't even put out my decorations on the lawn and I ALWAYS love doing that but this year I just didn't want to. I'm usually done shopping weeks before hand and I usually can't wait for Christmas morning. There is none of that this year. And it makes me sad to be this way. I talked to my Mom a bit about it tonight and she mentioned I had been this way for awhile now, how I wasn't even into decorating for Halloween and that's another holiday I love to decorate the house for. 8(
I need to fix this because this is not any way to live a life.
In other news we took the kids to Picture People ... and Aidan, who ALWAYS smiles for the camera, cried the entire time. Ironic, dontcha think? We did get one cute pose and we bought it. We're kind of glad he cried, that way we didn't end up spending tons of money. Then we took them to see Santa, we thought he would cry during that but he didn't! We got THE cutest pic, he is looking up at Santa & Santa is looking down at him. I love it! Maybe more then the Picture People one, heh.
Simba is sitting directly in front of me following the blinker as I type. I love these kittens but they have been driving me MAD the past few days. They are insane.