Rupert Rant
So I wake up around 9 a.m. remembering my dream where I was talking to Peach/Chery about Rupert, my good friend in L.A. and I was telling her about our messed up relationship. I wake up and decide to call him even though it's only 7 where he is. I'm thinking he's probably getting ready for work or something. He answers his cell phone and says "What the fuck??"
Turns out HE had a dream about me last night as well and had been up the past hour hunting for my phone number to call me.
Shit like that ALWAYS happens to us. I swear to God . . . I dunno. It's messed up in so many ways.
So marriage has been on my mind a lot lately. What with so many of my friends getting married and whatnot (well okay 2 but still that's a lot when you aren't used to it). I had decided I really am not ready for marriage and I couldn't imagine getting married soon and then I couldn't imagine a guy I would want to spend the rest of my life with. That just . . . uuggg one man forever and ever? (although with divorce such a easy choice these days it's not really forever and ever) but still . . . Other than Chris hehe there was no man I would want experiencing everything that is me.
Rupert though. Rupert I could spend my entire life with. Since the first day we met I have been comfortable with him. I don't hide anything from him and I don't feel the urge to hide anything from him. He is everything I want in a marriage and even the thought of kids with him puts a grin on my face. KIDS??? ME???
So damnit, destiny, fate, God, stop fucking around with us and fix this. Make California closer to Oklahoma or move us to Austin (we've been seriously talking about that the last few times we've talked)
And quit making Rupert say all these things to me then never pulling through.
Turns out HE had a dream about me last night as well and had been up the past hour hunting for my phone number to call me.
Shit like that ALWAYS happens to us. I swear to God . . . I dunno. It's messed up in so many ways.
So marriage has been on my mind a lot lately. What with so many of my friends getting married and whatnot (well okay 2 but still that's a lot when you aren't used to it). I had decided I really am not ready for marriage and I couldn't imagine getting married soon and then I couldn't imagine a guy I would want to spend the rest of my life with. That just . . . uuggg one man forever and ever? (although with divorce such a easy choice these days it's not really forever and ever) but still . . . Other than Chris hehe there was no man I would want experiencing everything that is me.
Rupert though. Rupert I could spend my entire life with. Since the first day we met I have been comfortable with him. I don't hide anything from him and I don't feel the urge to hide anything from him. He is everything I want in a marriage and even the thought of kids with him puts a grin on my face. KIDS??? ME???
So damnit, destiny, fate, God, stop fucking around with us and fix this. Make California closer to Oklahoma or move us to Austin (we've been seriously talking about that the last few times we've talked)
And quit making Rupert say all these things to me then never pulling through.