there is no "fun" in funeral.
today was my grandma's funeral. wow. i dont really no what to say. i said the eulogy. i'm very proud of myself I didnt cry. she would have been proud. yesturday was the visitation and i was doing soooo good, i didnt cry once, and then like the last 5 minutes i freakin lost it. my grandpa had to literally drag me away from the casket. it was an open casket. and i have to say, i didnt want them to close it. it meant it was the last time i'd ever see my grandma. *sigh. i think i am doing ok though. i'm at my aunt's house right now. i'm really worried about her and my grandpa. especially my grandpa. i have never seen him cry before in my entire life. but he was crying today. that breaks my heart. *sigh. my grandma isnt in anymore pain. that is all that matters. well, i'm gonna go. hope everyone is having a good summer break.