Giving up...
To who it may concern, this is most likely the last post I'll be writing about him.
It's become clear, even to me, and despite of every little hint I've dared to beleive in, that he would rather not meet me.
I feel I've asked him so many times, and turning me down most of the times -that's not just 'cause he's busy or because he's shy.
For some reason I don't really feel anything about it right now. Not dissappointment or regret or anything. Might be too early i the morning, or I might just be too tired from constantly hoping.
Ofcourse there is some part of me that's hoping that tomorrow I'll get to post something like "My last post was a lie!" and it'll be like post I've really been wanting to write for some time, saying that I finally told him and he returned my feelings. But it's stupid to hope for things like that, and I feel even dumber, 'cause now I start thinking about a post about this being stupid, but it still happened.
I do still plan on telling him though, at some point. But wether it will be face to face I really do doubt now.
But since I don't beleive in emoing, I'll try not to write anything more about my feelings for him, and not talk about it either. I'll do this both for my friends and for myself.
It's become clear, even to me, and despite of every little hint I've dared to beleive in, that he would rather not meet me.
I feel I've asked him so many times, and turning me down most of the times -that's not just 'cause he's busy or because he's shy.
For some reason I don't really feel anything about it right now. Not dissappointment or regret or anything. Might be too early i the morning, or I might just be too tired from constantly hoping.
Ofcourse there is some part of me that's hoping that tomorrow I'll get to post something like "My last post was a lie!" and it'll be like post I've really been wanting to write for some time, saying that I finally told him and he returned my feelings. But it's stupid to hope for things like that, and I feel even dumber, 'cause now I start thinking about a post about this being stupid, but it still happened.
I do still plan on telling him though, at some point. But wether it will be face to face I really do doubt now.
But since I don't beleive in emoing, I'll try not to write anything more about my feelings for him, and not talk about it either. I'll do this both for my friends and for myself.