someday ill be able to write consistently, again.
My whole life is just a whirlwind of emotions and crazy. that is all I can think of to write right now. I don't even know what I am doing, anymore. or what is real. or going on. or going to happen. I don't even want to think about where I am going to be if ________________________________________. that's it. what is in the blank? I don't even know. I would just like you to leave my mind for enough time for me to be okay without you in my life, atleast for a while. and let myself not want you the way I do..loving you like this just won't get me anywhere, and I need to be strong for myself.