today has been a long one...
so, we got back from Jackson's Cardiologist appointment. Turns out that he will need a procedure and it looks like it might be as soon as Aug 14th. The doctor said it wasn't an emergency, but that it wasn't going to get any better on it's own, so we should proceed. All I know at this point is that it will take place at UCLA, it is usually a same day in as out sort of thing, he will have to be put under and they will do it through a vein in the groin so there won't be any cutting or stitches. If all goes well, his heart will be great, it will shrink back to regular size, he wont need any further procedures and he will likely start putting on a little more weight. cross your fingers folks.
I feel really torn right now as a mother you want to protect your kids from being hurt, you'd take it upon your self to save them from pain, on the other hand I have this rational side that is telling the afraid me that it is an easy procedure and that I shouldn't worry. I don't know who to believe. I have never treated Jackson as anything but my little guy. I've never worn kid gloves with him or treated him like he was fragile. I don't intend on starting now. He is a happy, kid who loves his family. I can't start thinking about the worst case scenario now...
I feel really torn right now as a mother you want to protect your kids from being hurt, you'd take it upon your self to save them from pain, on the other hand I have this rational side that is telling the afraid me that it is an easy procedure and that I shouldn't worry. I don't know who to believe. I have never treated Jackson as anything but my little guy. I've never worn kid gloves with him or treated him like he was fragile. I don't intend on starting now. He is a happy, kid who loves his family. I can't start thinking about the worst case scenario now...